midgee

The years we spent together..he always fantasized, Kat Von D and Rose Mcgowen and hot wrestlers and so on..all i ever wanted was to be that fantasy...be that exotic being that was dreamt about at night. The one who filled the loneliness at times. After the break up i blossomed into much more. Im no longer the girlfriend, I am in deed the fantasy. When loneliness time arrives...the text start flying in from all over..the ex..the summer fling..the 2 weeker, the guy that just didnt click..the out of towner...and so on. I dance under the stars at whatever bar i decide to choose....i go home with numbers that i dont remember the next day. I can never say "no" and that is why my reality has turned into a fantasy. Im the fantasy. As of now i dont mind...because i have lived with the reality...the reality of being the girlfriend and at times...its not so pretty