A problem I'm having...
It's been a long time since I have felt creative. In the sense that I am not creating that which is making me happy at a core level, I feel somewhat stifled. Of course its pointless to try to place blame or discover reasons for my lack, it just is and has been for a long time an elusive endeavor. The solution obviously lies in me somewhere, I just can't seem to tap into it.
I guess you could say that designing my chest tat is creative and I would agree except that pleasure in doing it seems to be preempted by a feeling of failure at trying to express to myself correctly, the message onto my skin in visual form what concept lies in my head as feelings. It also is the first attempt at any art form in some time. So... I'm stalemated between a need to create, and some sort of deficiency in motivation or lack of will to create... anything.
Don't get me wrong, I am not depressed or anything mental like that. I love who I am and what qualities I possess I am happy with. This is merely a stall in an activity that I once greatly enjoyed. Its expression is not relevant, it could be art in a type of drawing or writing or simply the satisfaction of landscaping something to an artistic and satisfying end.
It feels a little bit like standing before a door with my hand on the knob but doing nothing and not entering, just standing there. Whatever.
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It's been a long time since I have felt creative. In the sense that I am not creating that which is making me happy at a core level, I feel somewhat stifled. Of course its pointless to try to place blame or discover reasons for my lack, it just is and has been for a long time an elusive endeavor. The solution obviously lies in me somewhere, I just can't seem to tap into it.
I guess you could say that designing my chest tat is creative and I would agree except that pleasure in doing it seems to be preempted by a feeling of failure at trying to express to myself correctly, the message onto my skin in visual form what concept lies in my head as feelings. It also is the first attempt at any art form in some time. So... I'm stalemated between a need to create, and some sort of deficiency in motivation or lack of will to create... anything.
Don't get me wrong, I am not depressed or anything mental like that. I love who I am and what qualities I possess I am happy with. This is merely a stall in an activity that I once greatly enjoyed. Its expression is not relevant, it could be art in a type of drawing or writing or simply the satisfaction of landscaping something to an artistic and satisfying end.
It feels a little bit like standing before a door with my hand on the knob but doing nothing and not entering, just standing there. Whatever.
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hope you cheer up soon!