miadahlia

All I really want is to be Happy. Why can't my life be consistent? One day it sucks, the next it rocks. I just want stability but once again I am in a depressive state. Grrr...

I had a great Thursday. I hung out w/ a guy w/ whom I have benefits but who I also am kind of starting to like again. We had amazing sex, cuddled, joked around a lot, & he just made me Smile a lot. Something I haven't done in a long ass time. I was high on him & I felt my Heart start to thaw... But I guess I felt too soon because I know I shouldn't expect anything & I don't want to get hurt. I am digging on him but I don't know how he feels, if he feels anything at all. He did say he misses me but of course words are just words...

& I'm gettting discouraged about this whole SG thing. Yall fuckers need to show me major Love so I can go PINK!! lol. I just don't understand how some girls have gone pink so soon w/ only one set while it takes awhile for others before they go pink, IF they make it at all. I know it may take more than one set before some women make it but damn, photo shoots aren't cheap, you know?! I do have some ideas for new sets, it's just a matter of finding the time to do them, as well as finding the funds to pay for them. Blah All the women on here are beautiful & deserve to go Pink...