metta

Thanksgiving.

I came

I ate

i slept.


....hit the gym this a.m.




p.s. we also went for a long country drive yesterday. We also went on a short hike.

BEAUTIFUL!

My workout killed me..
well not really.

i feel awesome.

Im gonna see someone i havent seen in about year and a half on saturday.

i hope i shock them.

Proper blog?? mayhaps.

Things in metta-land are OK.. just OK.

no real highs no real lows. ( well except maybe the break up . we are civil and friendly)

now that i am officially single i have been getting back into the working out/eating right game.

no real results yet that i can see but my SKIN..my god my skin has gotten so good that...
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i swear ill come up with something better but

right now my stomach is going through detox.

the protein is getting to me.

ill update more later.

new day.

fuck it.

It's official. My relationship is over.

I know it was a fault of both of us but i got a letter pointing out all of the shit i did.
what an eye opener.

It was only an eye opener in the sense that i was feeling he was narcissistic and the letter just proved my point.

I didnt retaliate. I let him have his moment...
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So where have i gone?

nowhere.


and that scares me...

although i have made great strides in my physical health my actually life has stalled.


so from now on. I am going to do what i WANT...

screw other people.. Im not accountable for them.

It's liberating really.

Ta~

So i try to be the best person i can be...most days.
and most days people can see that.

why is it the person you care for the most ends up thinking you dont care enough about their needs or problems?

why is it when you give your all , it's still not enough.

ive been taken emotionally hostage.

someone pull the trigger.