metrognome

my Xmas break was wonderful. i spent most of it in Lexington, not surprisingly, and thats exactly what was needed to set my soul and mind in order. after the aforementioned weirdness with flying in from London and recovering from a fierce case of jet lag, i spent a few good days up in Iowa at Cornell, visiting with old friends and making new ones. i did something i really shouldnt have, and that ill keep between myself and a few specific people who need to know, but overall it was incredibly nice to be there again.

after returning i spent a day or two with family in Nashville, then went down to Lexington for a few days. it was a strange weekend, as it was the first time Sarci and i were together for any real length of time since id been gone. we bickered and cried as much as we laughed and cuddled, but all in all it was good for us, considering all that has happened.

i left reluctantly on Xmas Eve to drive back to Danville, IL for my family celebrations, and had to work my way through a terrific blizzard. it was hard going, but i got home okay. had a great time with my aunts and uncles and cousins, and got some awesome presents: a new luggage set, a desk chair, the "Monty Python LIVE!" video set, and plane tickets for a one-week visit from Sarci over her Spring Break (!!!!). that last one was particularly surprising and cool, and even more so to her. hee hee... my parents rock.

anyway, after Xmas i went back to LexVegas to help Sarci move into her new house, which is excellent. i presented her with the Spring Break trip, and she lost her marbles, so that was cool. we spent a good two days just packing up and making trips back and forth from old to new abode, and the rest of the time was just chillin, but unlike the previous weekend it was comfortable on all fronts. her and i worked as a team, physically, emotionally, in every way, and i was uncontrollably happy. things were right again, wed come through the storm together and triumphant, and though i still have fear and doubt in some respects, im a fuck of a lot more confident both in myself and in the relationship.

New Years Eve we drove back to Nashville and spent the crazy night with my friends, drinking and playing video games and Trivial Pursuit and stuff. Sarci went home the evening of the 1st, and that was a hard parting since she was planning to stay another night but was barred from doing so by her moms mood swings, and i cried a bit as she drove off...

packed up, got up early on the 2nd and spent rougly 24 hours on 3 different planes in various cities, catching sleep and food where i could, finally arriving in London yesterday. im not as jetlagged as i though i would be, which is nice, but i am quite lonely. theres almost no one in the dorm save me and the staff, and all my UK buds are busy or out of town, so my return has been rather unheralded. today ive had almost no human contact save on the telecommunications front, and probably wont tomorrow either, unless i run into Paul or Kev by some freak accident.

overall, my break was wonderful. i saw my family, and spent a nice holiday with them, and saw old friends and partied like a rock star, but most of all i reconciled myself with Sarci and fell in love all over again. mistakes have been made, apologies have been given, and frankly im desirous to put everything in the past and just move on with as clean a slate as can be. i know people will say im making a mistake, but i dont care. i know who i love and what has happened, and ive made my own choice. and im happy.

now, off to watch the Simpsons....