metro

woke up this morning. first year is over...i wish last night had never ended, we didn't get to celebrate enough. and i'm scared of my grades. i'm scared of growing up. i can't believe i'm getting so old, i'm running out of time in school. i don't know what to do with myself. after a year of living hell, i have no idea what to do with free time.

i woke up feeling empty. no more assignments. no more classes. no more friends in the hallway, or silliness over lunch. no more commiserating over our nerdy misadentures here. at least not for a few months. at least for them.

for me, i won't see these people for a year. i'm going to study a year in Germany. i'm so wicked happy for that opportunity, but it also makes me really sad that i have to leave behind some people that i'm only starting to get to appreciate. ah me, im so silly...