damn, i've been MIA for a while. i'm so stressed with everything going on right now that i can't focus on anything long enough to get much accomplished. like just the thought of sitting down and writing a journal entry was stressful. why? wish i knew.
hope you all had a delightful halloween! i hung out with bryn last night for halloween! it was such great fun. she is truly the coolest and cutest EVER. we were going to be cultured and go to the orchestra, but the show was sold out [damn!] so we went uncultured and got beer and sat around telling stories and cursing like sailors! it was the best. in general, halloween treated me ok, other than my car getting egged on wednesday. the night BEFORE mischief night. city kids are so dumb.
on the downside, solomon is getting sick again. ever since he had a really bad respiratory infection last winter, he is more prone to getting them [and snakes are prone to getting them anyway]. all he needs is a few hours below 75 degrees and he's got the sniffles. or the snakey equivalent. and even when he stays warm enough, he has breathing problems along the lines of asthma, where his breathing gets stressed when he is active. my poor boy. his heater shorted out last week and he was without heat for a day or so. luckily, he's in a warm room so his temps stayed around 74 degrees, which is pushing it but not TOO dangerous. i gotta get him some good antibiotics so he doesn't get worse, and a back-up heater in case his fails. that's why he got sick last year, too. his heater shorted out while he was at my parent's house and he was without heat [and at like 65 degrees] for 5 days. i felt like such a negligent mother. i still do.
the job search isn't going so well... i have applied to over 50 jobs and haven't heard back yet from a single one. it's starting to get scary. but on a good note, sean has a good prospect for a job that pays pretty well. wedding stuff is really picking up since i'm past the 6-month point, and i'm starting to feel overwhelmed with that, too. for so long there was nothing i had to do, and all of a sudden it's dresses, guest list, flowers, cake, invitations, favors... ugh. we should've just eloped.
i feel like a sissy whining about so much stuff, but it's just the fact that i have so many little things that are eating at me from so many different angles. every time i turn around, there's something else coming to get me. as soon as i solve one problem, a new one crops up to join the other 10 that i still haven't solved. i just keep telling myself that it's a hectic time in my life and that it'll all be settled in a year or so... but it's so hard to be that optimistic all the time. i need a vacation so bad.
yours stressfully,
~*meta
hope you all had a delightful halloween! i hung out with bryn last night for halloween! it was such great fun. she is truly the coolest and cutest EVER. we were going to be cultured and go to the orchestra, but the show was sold out [damn!] so we went uncultured and got beer and sat around telling stories and cursing like sailors! it was the best. in general, halloween treated me ok, other than my car getting egged on wednesday. the night BEFORE mischief night. city kids are so dumb.
on the downside, solomon is getting sick again. ever since he had a really bad respiratory infection last winter, he is more prone to getting them [and snakes are prone to getting them anyway]. all he needs is a few hours below 75 degrees and he's got the sniffles. or the snakey equivalent. and even when he stays warm enough, he has breathing problems along the lines of asthma, where his breathing gets stressed when he is active. my poor boy. his heater shorted out last week and he was without heat for a day or so. luckily, he's in a warm room so his temps stayed around 74 degrees, which is pushing it but not TOO dangerous. i gotta get him some good antibiotics so he doesn't get worse, and a back-up heater in case his fails. that's why he got sick last year, too. his heater shorted out while he was at my parent's house and he was without heat [and at like 65 degrees] for 5 days. i felt like such a negligent mother. i still do.
the job search isn't going so well... i have applied to over 50 jobs and haven't heard back yet from a single one. it's starting to get scary. but on a good note, sean has a good prospect for a job that pays pretty well. wedding stuff is really picking up since i'm past the 6-month point, and i'm starting to feel overwhelmed with that, too. for so long there was nothing i had to do, and all of a sudden it's dresses, guest list, flowers, cake, invitations, favors... ugh. we should've just eloped.
i feel like a sissy whining about so much stuff, but it's just the fact that i have so many little things that are eating at me from so many different angles. every time i turn around, there's something else coming to get me. as soon as i solve one problem, a new one crops up to join the other 10 that i still haven't solved. i just keep telling myself that it's a hectic time in my life and that it'll all be settled in a year or so... but it's so hard to be that optimistic all the time. i need a vacation so bad.
yours stressfully,
~*meta
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i hope you find some peace soon.
and a great big smile to go with it.
xoxo