metalmarna

My mind always draws a blank when I want to update on this thing. I have so much to say, I just don't know where to start or maybe I don't know how to go about saying it. It could be a variety of different reasons why I find it hard to write on this thing. Regardless, it's painstakingly pathetic. I used to be able to write for days about everything so easily, words would flow right through me like liquid wine; intoxicating these pages with meaningful word play. I'm all dry now, the last drop sipped from my mind - a dust basin. Need to uncork another bottle of the red, I guess. And quick.

I'm at my friends house right now listening to an eclectic mix of hip hop songs, anywhere from LL Cool J to the Shapeshifters. I love the lyrics to a lot of these songs. I wish I could flow like these guys. Just let the words spit out with feeling, a rhythm, and some poppin' beats. So much conviction, so much heart. I can't help bobbing my head back and forth to this shit. Hip hop is an art craft of skinless poetry.

. . . you seek behind alternative dreams
so you can see
who'd love to see you fall
behind door number two
who'd turn red to see you blue
behind door one is you
which proves
the real enemy is the envy
eaten by jealousy
you're killing me
and everyone I know-o-o
is killing you
the seasons come from me
and this was past on to me
as a gift to you
pass on to others
don't be surprised
if what you once thought to be important
is no longer . . .

I did an article on Circus of the Shapeshifters in my magazine a couple years back. They've gone really far since then. I'm proud of them. That's one thing I love about being a journalist, having the power to put light on things you deem as important and should be shared with the people. There are so many talented, mind-blowing, people out there and GOD HELP ME, I'm going to meet every single on of them and tell their story. That's what I am, a story teller.

Which is why I am not very happy about losing touch with what makes me . . . me. The ability to write. So freely. Is gone. Hopefully, just for the time being. Things will change though, I can feel it.

Things are always changing.