Its been a tough, wierd week. I guess that toughness and wierdness is following me into this week, too.
I'm feeling REALLY lonely lately. I dont know if its breaking off my 6 month relationship, or just feeling overwhelmed with school and work, but I'm feeling like I dont really have anyone I can talk to this year. Katie is off in Spain and all of my other close friends are busy or really involved with new groups of friends. I'm sure being super fucking busy isn't helping me, either. I just feel like I'm getting stood up a lot and I wonder if people expect that I'm ok with it. There are some people I havent even seen this semester, and the fact that they havent made time for me is a little painful, too.
I've been going through a lot of soul searching lately, and I'm not really sure what its doing to me or what the outcome will be. I'm trying to find out who i am and having a tough time with it. Its hard to decide if what I'm doing/trying out is what I want, or what I think i want, or what i think society wants.
Last week was kind of awful. Midterms and the breakup and a really uncomfortable party experience (on multiple levels).
I wish I was back in highschool sometimes. I feel like i knew who i was back then.
In the un-emo update department, work is getting better. My first event is this Friday. A fashion show hosted by Marilyn Wann (www.fatso.com). Dance rehearsal is still going well. I'm uncertain of my role in the whole thing, but hopefully it becomes clearer in the near future. School is kicking my ass, but whatever. I'll deal. Ceramics is still a great outlet for me, but I think im getting in a rut- I need some new ideas.
Things to look forward to: A set I photographed finally going up, possible photographing of Rob Zombie, Ozzy, Tool and QOTSA, and celebrating Halloween.
I've been wishing i was back in Mexico a lot lately.
I'm feeling REALLY lonely lately. I dont know if its breaking off my 6 month relationship, or just feeling overwhelmed with school and work, but I'm feeling like I dont really have anyone I can talk to this year. Katie is off in Spain and all of my other close friends are busy or really involved with new groups of friends. I'm sure being super fucking busy isn't helping me, either. I just feel like I'm getting stood up a lot and I wonder if people expect that I'm ok with it. There are some people I havent even seen this semester, and the fact that they havent made time for me is a little painful, too.
I've been going through a lot of soul searching lately, and I'm not really sure what its doing to me or what the outcome will be. I'm trying to find out who i am and having a tough time with it. Its hard to decide if what I'm doing/trying out is what I want, or what I think i want, or what i think society wants.
Last week was kind of awful. Midterms and the breakup and a really uncomfortable party experience (on multiple levels).
I wish I was back in highschool sometimes. I feel like i knew who i was back then.
In the un-emo update department, work is getting better. My first event is this Friday. A fashion show hosted by Marilyn Wann (www.fatso.com). Dance rehearsal is still going well. I'm uncertain of my role in the whole thing, but hopefully it becomes clearer in the near future. School is kicking my ass, but whatever. I'll deal. Ceramics is still a great outlet for me, but I think im getting in a rut- I need some new ideas.
Things to look forward to: A set I photographed finally going up, possible photographing of Rob Zombie, Ozzy, Tool and QOTSA, and celebrating Halloween.
I've been wishing i was back in Mexico a lot lately.
- I'm sorry you had to break things off w/ your gal...no matter what the reason those kinds of things are always hard especially when you've spent most of your personal time w/ her
- School tends to kick everyone's ass no matter how easy or hard the classes may be. In other words: Time consumption...yet it's a positive any way you roll w/ it...
- Possible ideas for a ceramics project:
- A Teapot
- A plate w/ some of your favourite geometric shapes painted in primary colors
- A Mask to hang over a door (for halloween) like Frankenstein or Micheal Myers
- Effigy vessels (South American inspired of course
- drink coasters (and you can glue on some felt on the bottom so they stay in place)
- ....um...I'm out of ideas right now...all I can think of off the top of my head
- I hope you can have a chance to photograph some of those folks (especially Ozzy and Rob
*waves*
P.S. -
School, school, school.