mervin

I'm a real boy!

"Homeward bound I wish I was"

All these towns look the same, up and down the east coast;
South East, promised land, pink pick-up in the yard.
where Jimmy is something you drive not a poor boy setting himself on fire
while his guitar just weeps
and weeps

All these towns look the same.
Load in through the back door,
Step out through the front,...
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Sometimes things are as bad as they seem. So? I got a silver lining saved for a rainy day. Sometimes I snap back so hard its painful. What's a brother to do? My mother was frightened by a Timex watch while she was carrying me. God forgive me my tireless pitt bull mendacity.

She holds the cat
in her lap,
they stare:
the cat into your plate,
she into your eyes.
They are equals in desire.

Smart pretty girls what they teach and how they leave.

When I was a boy I knew a smart pretty girl and she told me stories about places I would never go and she taught me things.

When I was a boy, I knew a girl, a smart pretty girl.

I left the university
because I could not stand the taste
of professionally flavored truths
But before I could escape,
I too learned to tell cloying, party colored lies.

I learned to lie and to hate at the
university.

I learned to hate myself for speaking.
My mind had become a factory
at every turning I generated stricture
and limitation.
To speak was to strangle,...
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Noone ever showed me there was no God or taught me there was no self.

The storm is passed.

So it goes.

It is possible to learn all sorts of monkey shines in hallowed halls and it takes so many years to unlearn those tricks enough to speak. It is all hard won. A metaphor, a phrase, a bright image, a sentence or two crafted well enough to stand on their own in a digital silence, for an instant.. A miracle.

A prof. told me once you...
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