Ah it's Sunday and I'm quite drunk, means you'll get more out of me than normal. Welcome to my being less shady as someone in my past used to call me.
I've been coping a little while with a real libido problem, it's normally high, but rarely has it been as bad of late. I've always tried to accept it as just part and parcel of being a geek something to put up with over the years. And it's been fine so far the usual pottering along stupid innuendo trying to divert it and not upset anyone, but that doesn't stop it being a huge pain in the arse.
The real problem comes afterwards, the frustration always passes but the resulting loneliness takes a chunk out of you every time. That's not how it is right now, but it'll be here soon enough, I know my moods well enough for that. Save sympathy or comiseration for then.
Hmm what more can I give you before reason gets the better of me?
This returns to a single fact, I used to be a compulsive liar. It's kind of like getting that "I'm an alcoholic" out of the way (I'm not an alcoholic, you've just caught me at a bad moment), I'm not a compulsive liar any more (and any more recovering compulsive liars out there I would love to talk to you about it), I was lucky and caught myself early, part of being very self controlling I would suppose. I started early in my teens and as with most of this persuasion was very very good, I probably could be again, but honesty has stood me in better stead for 13 years, and I can see no reason to restart.
Oh I still lie on occasion, it's one of those social necessities, but I would say I lie less than most people, even sober you can get some truly horrible information out of me without my batting an eyelid, you don't know TMI until you've asked a recovering compulsive liar some personal questions.
Lying compulsivly is about control, and in my limited experience seems to be a pridominantly male disorder, most females indulge it a different way as part of a borderline personality disorder. That's based on the people I've met, not on any statistics, this isn't something I've studied (although I may have passed psychology if that had actually been the case), it's just something I've been through.
Lying sucessfully feels good, it's a huge adrenaline and confidence boost. It satisfies the controller, the manipulator in you, but as with all these things it doesn't have a future in adult life (although many drag it out). Some people do try to drag it out and many are successful, after all practice makes perfect and who's had more practice than a compulsive? They just have to hope that they don't run into those of us that are recovering, we (or I) can spot them off a mile away, even if they are borderline.
Would you want to get involved with a recovering compulsive liar? Well that's a tricky one, they will be more honest than anyone else you've ever met simply because they know the cost of a lie, but we're a weird bunch, control freaks the lot of us. If you want a partner that will play you like a violin then you're onto a winner, but if you're a control freak too, we're not for you.
Any questions ask now while I'm still compromised, otherwise forever hold your peace. Or at least until the next time this happens.
All above is void based on my alcohol limit.
I've been coping a little while with a real libido problem, it's normally high, but rarely has it been as bad of late. I've always tried to accept it as just part and parcel of being a geek something to put up with over the years. And it's been fine so far the usual pottering along stupid innuendo trying to divert it and not upset anyone, but that doesn't stop it being a huge pain in the arse.
The real problem comes afterwards, the frustration always passes but the resulting loneliness takes a chunk out of you every time. That's not how it is right now, but it'll be here soon enough, I know my moods well enough for that. Save sympathy or comiseration for then.
Hmm what more can I give you before reason gets the better of me?
This returns to a single fact, I used to be a compulsive liar. It's kind of like getting that "I'm an alcoholic" out of the way (I'm not an alcoholic, you've just caught me at a bad moment), I'm not a compulsive liar any more (and any more recovering compulsive liars out there I would love to talk to you about it), I was lucky and caught myself early, part of being very self controlling I would suppose. I started early in my teens and as with most of this persuasion was very very good, I probably could be again, but honesty has stood me in better stead for 13 years, and I can see no reason to restart.
Oh I still lie on occasion, it's one of those social necessities, but I would say I lie less than most people, even sober you can get some truly horrible information out of me without my batting an eyelid, you don't know TMI until you've asked a recovering compulsive liar some personal questions.
Lying compulsivly is about control, and in my limited experience seems to be a pridominantly male disorder, most females indulge it a different way as part of a borderline personality disorder. That's based on the people I've met, not on any statistics, this isn't something I've studied (although I may have passed psychology if that had actually been the case), it's just something I've been through.
Lying sucessfully feels good, it's a huge adrenaline and confidence boost. It satisfies the controller, the manipulator in you, but as with all these things it doesn't have a future in adult life (although many drag it out). Some people do try to drag it out and many are successful, after all practice makes perfect and who's had more practice than a compulsive? They just have to hope that they don't run into those of us that are recovering, we (or I) can spot them off a mile away, even if they are borderline.
Would you want to get involved with a recovering compulsive liar? Well that's a tricky one, they will be more honest than anyone else you've ever met simply because they know the cost of a lie, but we're a weird bunch, control freaks the lot of us. If you want a partner that will play you like a violin then you're onto a winner, but if you're a control freak too, we're not for you.
Any questions ask now while I'm still compromised, otherwise forever hold your peace. Or at least until the next time this happens.
All above is void based on my alcohol limit.