mercuryknight

Currently listening to "Vilify" by Device

Wow, that is really all I have to say about this situation... I have been seeing a girl on and off for the last 2 years. It has only ever been a long distance thing because I'm as poor as fuck. But, the last couple months things seemed to be getting serious again with her.
Then bam today I find out the last couple weeks she is seeing someone whom also is long distance... We talked today and I told her if this is what she wants then I will stand off to the sidelines. Just I don't think I can do this anymore. In all my relationships, I have been left for someone else... NEVER have I dumped someone, and I also have never cheated or lied about something. I let her go for third time now... Never have I felt so strongly for someone and so euphoric when talking to them.
Now I sit here typing up my feelings and wondering if what I did was the right move. I have always been the nice guy. I hate being an asshole, even though I know I can be. Just I have yet to find someone who is as serious as I when it comes to being with someone. Loyalty, honestly and understanding have always been my perks.
Sighs, I just feel lost and alone right now and not even my friends are there to cheer me up...