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Found this morbid quiz online. Looks like i was right about how I'd do it if I were to!!

When i kill myself i'll...

Find
out your most ideal means of suicide by clicking here


"Since you're such a "morbid" and "gothic" person, it probably would be most ideal to slit your wrists. Just think of the expression of your loved ones faces when they find you snow white in a deep red bath of your own blood. A suicide note carved into yourself would also be a cool addition, but hey its your body ... oh and don't forget to give your soul to Satan, I'm pretty sure he has dibs anyway. "

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bah. I'm pretty messed up, so I'd better update now before I no longer have the motivation. Please excuse spelling errors in advance, I'm sure there'll be a few I will be too lazy to fix.

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Today I ponder this question: Is it so hard to call someone to tell them you can't make it? (as in on the date, coming to visit you, etc.)

I find it is not unbelieveably difficult to pick up a phone, dial some numbers, and say "Hey, my bad, we're gonna have to see each other on another night, something's come up." Is this a speicial ability, a super-power, if you will, that only females have? In the animal kingdom, the males do all the work of getting their ladies. They puff out their chests, they show their brights colors, they do dances for her.... It seems within the human population it's become the opposite. Maybe it used to be that way fifty years ago, but now, it seems to me the game has been flipped. Women are more independent and confident these days. They don't have to wait for a boy to propose to them because they're only destined for making babies and doing dishes. Now they chase after the guys. Somehow in the past ten or twenty years, women have inadvertantly screwed themselves by making this chasing after dudes thing a habit. Yeah it's great we can assert ourselves and all Ladies, but really, let's give it a rest, because I for one am tired, ater only 5 months in this jungle they call dating. Now here I sit, blaming the other women of the world, for this guy not calling me when we had plans. Damn him for making me hate my own gender for a moment too.

I'm impatient, so this theory doesn't exactly apply to me. I can't wait around for a guy. Come to think of it, I'm retarded because I believe in get what you want, and I'm a "self-starter" as they say in resumes... BUT, I'm still tired.

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Song Lyrics:

Silverstein, Waiting Four Years

I gave you everything, but it just wasnt enough
to make you stay. You said youd give me time andspace
again. I asked to see you everyday. Now Im waiting four
years just to feel your touch, waiting four whole years to say
how much I care. The flowers I gave you, died, lost and been
thrown away, just like me. Life has passed me by, reflected in
my eye. Never again will I have you beside me, you to be there.
The years behind cost more than Ill ever have. Now Im waiting four
years just to hear your voice, waiting four whole years to lie right
by your side. I waited all this time, just to see your smile. I waited
all this time to say how much I care. Can you see me waiting for you everyday?

**Wow. Does Silverstein know me?

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After like five years of knowing each other, 2 of them pretty friggin well, I finally have one picture of me and GetUpReggie in existence. Behold:



Yeah. Finally. And look how silly we look, hah

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Questions of the Day

1. Tell me one of your happiest memories of dating someone.
Laying in bed all day and worshipping each other and kissing, all without sex. How he smiles at me when we were into hot make-out sessions. What it felt like falling in love again, although it was for naught.

2. Tell me one lesson you've learned for sure in this crazy dating game.
We will never understand the opposite sex. Just deal.

3. Can I save him? (Just answer with the first thing that comes to mind.)

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*sigh.*