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I just finished watching Donnie Darko.

It's left me feeling... disconnected. What a strange movie. I knew there was a reason I had to outright buy it without even seeing it.

It's pretty thought-provoking.

And some people think movies are bad for you. The downfall of America. Placing junk and garbage and sex and drugs and murder and hurt into our minds. When it's already there. We just supress it.
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Silverstein, Giving Up
I know youve played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away.
A shattered memory that you would stay,
through thick and thin with me.

And when you feel the pain,
Im wishing I could stay.
How can I say I love you back,
you never made me happy.
Youve laid yourself to sleep,
I never said this wouldnt hurt.
You gave up everything;
I never said Id give it back.
I know youll never change;
I wont be good enough for you.
I know, youll make it through,
Ill never be around to see.

And now you throw it all away.
A shattered memory that you would stay,
through thick and thin with me.
Youre giving up on me.

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I think I'm in love, by the way.
This scares me. I don't want to get hurt again. Not ever again. But the question here is, do I live my whole life being scared? Because of one wound? One cut deep enough to leave a scar forever? Hey, scar tissue's harder to cut through, right?

Everyone always takes pictures of happy people, nice places, joyous occasions. Things that make us smile. Does anyone ever take a picture when they're sad? I just did.