Well beta SG is no longer beta. Hello new look. I enjoy it.
Trying to get ahold of some painkillers. They're there, problem is, I have no money till tomorrow. Literally, I think since I bought smokes I'm like 2 bucks negative. At least it's only 2 bucks... but the Tooth is on a rampage again, here after I thought it'd be okay. No such luck.
Went out last night, Scott paid for us to go to Elektroshock at Grand Central. That was a good outing... nothing really eventful, but nice. Drinks, music, nice people. *shrug* better than staying at home.
And now I'm at home with nothing to do. Scott is working. I found out I do NOT in fact start my new salon job today (or I'd be there now)... and not this sunday. But the sunday AFTER next. So, I quit the job at duclaw thinking I'd have a bit of extra income anyway, but... ugh, as usual, I was hasty. I can go back if I want to, honestly, but really... I hate it and thinking about being there makes me cringe. So, I think for once, I am choosing being poor (since fuckall, I already can't pay my bills with two jobs anyway) over unbridled hatred of being in a job that I can't stand.
Oh, and I have no toilet paper. damn all!!
God I hate being like this. I also prepared myself for the inevitability that my house will be lost to foreclosure, but then I had an epiphany last night that made me mauseous... if they take my house and I don't make any money, I will not be able to pay back the 5 grand that I was loaned to get back ahead of things a few months ago. This makes me feel like a complete and utter loser. I mean, I can pay it back of course, but not in the ONE lump sum I was going to do so with the settlement check.
I'm going out to do something... I can't sit here and just mope and wonder what the hell I'm supposed to do all the time. I'm in a spot I can't get out of until this house is gone, either sold or foreclosed. I'm just ready to lose it again....
PS - my toilet just stopped working. The tank won't fill with water. wtf.
Trying to get ahold of some painkillers. They're there, problem is, I have no money till tomorrow. Literally, I think since I bought smokes I'm like 2 bucks negative. At least it's only 2 bucks... but the Tooth is on a rampage again, here after I thought it'd be okay. No such luck.
Went out last night, Scott paid for us to go to Elektroshock at Grand Central. That was a good outing... nothing really eventful, but nice. Drinks, music, nice people. *shrug* better than staying at home.
And now I'm at home with nothing to do. Scott is working. I found out I do NOT in fact start my new salon job today (or I'd be there now)... and not this sunday. But the sunday AFTER next. So, I quit the job at duclaw thinking I'd have a bit of extra income anyway, but... ugh, as usual, I was hasty. I can go back if I want to, honestly, but really... I hate it and thinking about being there makes me cringe. So, I think for once, I am choosing being poor (since fuckall, I already can't pay my bills with two jobs anyway) over unbridled hatred of being in a job that I can't stand.
Oh, and I have no toilet paper. damn all!!
God I hate being like this. I also prepared myself for the inevitability that my house will be lost to foreclosure, but then I had an epiphany last night that made me mauseous... if they take my house and I don't make any money, I will not be able to pay back the 5 grand that I was loaned to get back ahead of things a few months ago. This makes me feel like a complete and utter loser. I mean, I can pay it back of course, but not in the ONE lump sum I was going to do so with the settlement check.
I'm going out to do something... I can't sit here and just mope and wonder what the hell I'm supposed to do all the time. I'm in a spot I can't get out of until this house is gone, either sold or foreclosed. I'm just ready to lose it again....
PS - my toilet just stopped working. The tank won't fill with water. wtf.
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sorry to hear about your money woes..
we have a lot of debt to get out of also..
we fell behind when we owed taxes, and we even gave up the cable!
also trying really hard not to use the central air until absolutely necessary.
Poverty is a bitch!
did Scott quit Duclaw also?
What happened with those who buy houses for bottom dollar? Did they not offer enough to work out or just not even want it?