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so i think i have decided to quit drinking...

i got real fucked up the other weekend when "eddie bauer" insulted me and threw up all over my bedroom...

i went to piss and fell off the toilet with my panties around my ankles...trying to call cori to help me but it didnt work out the way i wanted...

i blacked out...

woke up to puke...in my hair, mouth, face, bed, floor...fucking everywhere...

you know when you get so drunk and sick and you literally think in the back of your head...im not gonna fucking make it...or am i just a fucking over dramatic queen?

i also decided...I DO NOT WANT ANY FUCKING KIDS OF MY OWN.

they get on my fucking nerves.

I DONT LIKE KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there i said it.

does that make me a bad person?

i cant take the screaming...the always wanting this and that...the FUCKING QUESTIONS i dont have answers to or just dont feel like answering...the running around acting like fool...the fighting with each other...the constant reminders to CLEAN UP!!!!!!!!

i mean, my step boys are cool...i love the shit out of them. but theyre older and can do for themselves...for the most part...theyre alright...and they go home to psycho every 2 days so i a two day break which is good because i cant deal.

but i refuse to babysit anymore bad kids! theyre fucking brats!!!!!!


thats it.


******UPDATED BECAUSE I AM NOW A HAPPY BITCH******


i just bought my tickets to see those beautiful SG's at Emos in Austin!!!!!!

im so excited! now my day has gotten so much better!