mephausto

somewhere beyond pushing someone else
to conform to your expectations
of coolness/emotions/shaving/dominance/sexual appetites/alotted giving/conversations/communications/eating habits/intellect/humor/problem solving/shopping style/music adoration/personal adoration/chores/technical knowledge/ability to save the world
there is some place
where affection remains pure
and unadulterated by
expectations
but i haven't found it
no
i haven't found it
because i'm still the sinner
even in my isolation

feh.
not what I wanted to say.
how could I even know
if i still bleague others with expectations
when i don't have any recipients at this moment in time?

feh.
still not what I wanted to say.
is this a cry for others
or just another scream at the stars?

mrph.
i need to let go
of these restraints
i've put upon myself
and let it all flow
like I know it can.

and I have to be up for work in six hours.
then the fez.

yeah.