mentalrape

am currently working on more lyrics... maybe i will add them here.. i'm always on http://mentalrape.deviantart.com/
so check me out there too... umm i dunno i'm just chillin out right now a hectic day of cleaning and whatnot.. what better way to spend winding down... well .. hmm i still have to go to work yet... damn... anywho... i'm up to a 10 song set for an acoustic night coming up soon.. i just have to memorize all the damn lyrics now... so far as it stands i'm running with only 2 originals and 8 covers... all good shit i think... everything that describes me a lot... umm... i have yet to place an order.. maybe someone could help me out...

i know you haven't heard my originals so i'll sort of explain them...

1. "Thirty Eight" - about a girl i fell in love with years ago, who broke my heart on very bad terms..Who since then has past away.. very deep.. to me..

"I cant seem to find
The happiness inside
Ive locked it away
For far too long

The misery
Makes me feel alive
As a part of me
Slowly dies

Id give up everything
To see you again
Maybe my Heart
Would mend

And Id give up everything
To lay next to you
On a concrete slab
Built for two

So this is
My love song
That youll never hear
Up above the clouds
So high
My words just disappear

I lost myself
Inside your eyes
And your smile
And your heart

Youll always have a place
Deep inside my soul
And the memories
They never get old

I remember laughter
Ringing in my ears
And i wasted
So many years

I remember crying
All those sleepless nights
Wishing for a
Moment in time


Youre gone(x3)
Im here
Take me away(x4)

So this is
My love song
That youll never hear
Up above the clouds
So high
My words just disappear

So this is
My love song
That youll never hear
Up above the clouds
So high
My words just disappear

My words just disappear
My world disappeared


2. "Anaemic Reality" - also about a girl, and my dad. That's my personal side... but the story tells a just a simple thing that we all sometimes want to say to someone who wasn't always there for you, but wanted to claim the rights to your proudness.

"you took away my passion
gave me pain instead
this burning deep inside
will never subside
(so)I searched through (all)my words
nothing comes close

to you for me
you're blind i'm bleeding

for you for me for everything
you wanted me to be anything but me
cause you are my anemic reality

the things you did
will never go away
the things you said
still hurt my head
this ringing in my ears
is louder then my tears

as they fall onto my skin

for you for me for everything
you wanted me to be anything but me
cause you are my anemic reality

third verse is more then a tragedy,
i gave you my love, you threw me fallacy.
so should i turn my back, and close the door on you.
for everything you've put me through.
an extended version, to ease my pain some more.
i want you to know that i have to let go.
it's closoure for me, and all the pain i've seen.
you've shown me things, that blinded me for life.
you left me broken, and my tainted heart to bleed.
for all of this, i cannot believe.........

in you, in me, in everything.
you wanted me to be,
anything but me,
cause you used to be,
my aneamic reality,
but now you're nothing...
but a faded memory....




"Epiphany"-Staind
"Outside" - Aaron Lewis(Staind)
"A.T.W.A." - System of a Down
"Aerials" - System of a Down
"Bleed" - Scooter Ward(Cold)/Aaron Lewis(Staind)
"Excess Baggage" - Aaron Lewis(Staind)
"Knife Party" - Deftones
"Change(In the House of Flies) - Deftones


thanks.. the list is sure to grow though... i'd like to through some nirvana, maybe pearl jam,blind melon, and a couple good surprises too...

let me know what you think....