mennyo

Remembering the APC dvd the commentary of Maynard on 3 libras saying he realize how people didn't search for art, for truth,dont want to learn more, that they are pretty much ok how things are, i think i reach that point.

I saw people everyday at work, friends and almost everywhere and seeing the same bullshit. At work people are ok how things are, they only want more money so they can pay his great home, have their luxury car and have their kids in private schools so dont have to look at them, but they im the bad guy for have a bad temper and dont help them in their plans, dont have a team spirit or being a positive guy, whatever that means. They only want more from u so they can get so they can win even more, i almost feel sick how uncreative people have control of the creative process, i mean for real how this happened, i have people that dont now a shit about design that tell me how to do my work, but if i tell them how to do they im the devil.

About love, relationships and stuff, i saw guys cheating their gf on their faces, or some friends that date many girls, sleep with them, lie about their age(in the better of cases) and the girls are offended? pissed?, no, they feel almost blessing this "fine" guys date them, i don't now if im stupid for notice or them for doing that, or maybe it whats girls like that and i have notice, but i guess al that alpha male thing, more girls u have more u will get, so im pretty much fucked up, but at the same time i think well if that girls are into that, well so good luck. Im always been the nice guy, the guy treat well, listen, but as a friend perfectly said, sadly feelings and care are old fashioned.

In internet is not much difference, even in forums here i see the most stupid, irrational topics, like hey im smarter than u, no way, im more smart, and all that ego bullshit, and guys that do everything to try get some girls. Even i now get girl on net does not work most of the time, and funny thing i thing because I'm shy, girls thinks im more a perv that the real pervs they have stalking them.

New generations have pretty much every knowledge on the net, movies music, arts, but they dont care, or dont use it. They are great at getting laid and get wasted on the weekend, but if u ask some general culture questions well is pretty bad in most cases.

I don't even now why i write all of this, but i feel i need to write it, i feel i dont fit any place, almost feel like a ghost in this world i cant understand, but again its just my opinion, maybe i really need become the positive guy and dont think to much stupid shit. Next blog will be only about portraits, maybe others things( creative hopefully), but no personal entries and that, and also im not writing this to someone be like yeah u are right, so be free of dont read it, don't write or just say fuck u, thats all

Menny