i hate every thing right now. so. i'm having some valium. some gin. some smoke. and a cigarette. and i'm going the fuck to bed.
i am so.tired. of being alone. being useless. being hopeless. being ugly. being difficult. being insane.
however. none of this will change.
i might as well have more gin.
i am so.tired. of being alone. being useless. being hopeless. being ugly. being difficult. being insane.
however. none of this will change.
i might as well have more gin.
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well. actually. i was fine until house boy came and plopped down on the couch when i've said time.and.time.again.
in the morning, i get ONE HOUR of alon time to myself, every day, and i enjoy it and to LEAVE IT ALONE.
he took it personally when i sighed and went back into the bedroom.
i'm tired. and i really didn't want to start my day like this. but you know what.
fuck it. you're home in 15 days. and counting.