melvina

i still retain my personalities. i am not integrated and never really wish to be. it'd be too quiet.. too strange. i learned through years of therapy with my favorite therapist-guy jack, how to "control" the most severe episodes.

that doesn't mean i can do it all the time. i can't. i still have to deal with them, day to day. We all have certain triggers that set a dex into motion.. we all have certain things we'll trade sanity for. lord, nikon, i'd have to write you a book to make it all understood..

more later, after red wine!

hey.
whats with this week.
dragging.
lagging.
lack of creative blood stirring me.



i do feel odd. nothing like myself lately.
even sober.

at least tomorrow is FUCKIN' FRIDAY!!!!!!!