I confess to you that I have no self-esteem, I don't like myself.
And it's horrible to have this feeling towards yourself, I should put myself first and instead I always put myself last.
I never feel beautiful, or if I do it's temporary.
Every time I can't wait to do new shootings, make new content, show myself... then I get blocked.
Perhaps what affected me the most was always being betrayed by my ex-partners, for every little thing there was always something wrong with me, especially on an aesthetic level.
At school I was made fun of for my aesthetic appearance, I looked as a boy, and they called me not very nice names like "rat" or something similar.
My family always compared my cousins' success to me.
Everything that led me to not like myself, to not see myself beautiful, for anything or anyone.
But there is a however!
I feel sure that one day all this will vanish, I will start to like myself again, to feel appreciated, I want to like myself, and I am sure that one day I will understand it.
Unfortunately, it's not that day yet, but this community is also supporting me a little in feeling accepted, and I thank you so much for all the beautiful comments you write to me π€β¨οΈ
You won't believe it, but some nice comments here are really good for the hearts of us girls. π«Άπ»
And I'm one of those. β€οΈπ©Ή
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hotdoguk:
You are beautiful & sexy β€οΈ. One day, you will believe it. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but one day and that day will not be far off. Self-esteem is hard to change but not impossible. It starts with small changes. You need to remove toxic people from your life. If you can't remove them (like family), then confront them and tell them how they make you feel. They may deny it or say that it doesn't mean anything. Their view is not important. A single act of standing up for yourself will change your own view of yourself. You are very brave to write this blog. Keep being brave. Believe the good things that are said about you or to you as they are heartfelt honesty. Ignore the bad things as they are said from bad & mean people out of jealousy or ignorance. As for your ex partners, they are idiots for losing youΒ πππ
sxeforlife:
Hugs you, you are more than wonderful and I hope your self esteem will be back soon as possible β€οΈ