Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats Tip

melly

Louisville

SG Since 2004

Followers 1096 Following 618

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Thursday Dec 09, 2004

Dec 9, 2004
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
Today was hard. Like a cock.
I went to Tim's memorial service/viewing tonight. I have his suicide letter that was sent to all of his friends. I can't stop reading it over and over again. What sucks is that I have to go to work tomorrow, and know that he won't be there. EVER. AGAIN.
I am going through so many different emotions right now . His letter is haunting my thoughts. His parents had all of his cds in GIANT boxes. Tim sure had a lot of CD's. But alas, music was his passion. It was kinda weird watching everyone at the funeral home looting around in those boxes, digging out CD's to take. I felt dirty and wrong. But, he and I shared alot of the same musical tastes, and I took a cd of his band's and a vincent gallo cd, and a bjork cd. I also took the Clash. I know he would have wanted us to have them, but I still feel wrong about it. Tim, I will miss you. You jerk. shocked frown

I think my cat is trying to kill me. He keeps trying to walk around my legs, as I am walking near the stairs. He is trying to kill me, so that he can be free to shit where he wants. I just know it.
That cute little bastard.

I am still a zombie right now. I don't know how long it will take to get out of this funk, but I am sure it will be awhile. I don't like for people to see my cry. I put on an "I'm tough, its all cake" front. But really, I am distraught and it is obvious. I let it go as soon as I got to the funeral home, and saw all my coworkers standing in a huddle, surrounded in cigarette smoke. I love you guys. I cried with them. I know he wanted us to not cry over him, and laugh and smile. He thought life was beautiful. Just not his own. It makd me sad. I am also kinda hurt.

If there is an afterlife , Tim. I loved ya. I will miss you.And I WILL go and fuck some shit up for you. I will never forget.

xoxo
Melly
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
poison:
I'll fuck shit up with you when I'm up there frown
Dec 9, 2004
maddy:
aww i love you miss melly. we will hang out. i get off at 5 on saturday and i think a dorming we may go....with lightsabers. but if you want to meet up early let me know.

glad you liked the pictures, hopefully they will go up *crosses fingers*


kiss
Dec 9, 2004

More Blogs

  • 04.18.23
    4

    It’s Been a While

    It’s been a while. How is everyone? I’m showing my age by saying i…
  • 10.03.18
    2

    Watching Troll 2. God help me.

  • 10.02.18
    7

    Tuesday

    . Ya know, it’s been 14 years since my first SG set launched. H…
  • 10.02.18
    1

    Been a long time! I’m still alive. :)

  • 02.06.13
    9

    Wednesday Feb 06, 2013

    Read More
  • 02.06.13
    7

    Wednesday Feb 06, 2013

    Wow I haven't been on here in awhile! How the hell are all of you?
  • 11.02.10
    11

    Tuesday Nov 02, 2010

    Hi, I'm naked.
  • 03.30.10
    9

    Wednesday Mar 31, 2010

    Imagine finding out you have cancer. 1 month later, you get laid off …
  • 03.08.10
    5

    Monday Mar 08, 2010

    Wow. I can't believe it has been so long since I last posted. I guess…
  • 06.08.09
    7

    Monday Jun 08, 2009

    All is well in the universe. Not much going on except working my life…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
10
months
3
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,597 SuicideGirls
  • 1,114,979 followers
  • 14,936,349 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,433,611 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo