Hey All,
Sorry I haven't been blogging a lot lately... Sorta went through at lot of stuff... and to be honest I learned a lot about myself... and I need to change when it comes to putting othere people's needs and wants before my own.
I'm sitting here and thinking about all the stuff that has happened in the last month and to be honest... sure I have found a piece of myself that I thought I had lost for a very long time... and for that I can look at everything and smile... because i truly feel like I have gained my true self back... I have been making friends and just going out and having fun...
when it comes to guys... I need to not focus on guys at all... lol In the last month I found that I fell for someone that wasn't even in canada... and to be honest I was me and with everything that he was going through I wanted to be supportive and make this thing... whatever it might have been work... but with some issues that we have to face in our lives... as much as I tried, he didn't want to let me support him... (or atleast that is how it felt.) amd sometimes I felt like I was the 2nd prize... I want to be the ONLY prize when it comes to the man that I end up dating again. I won't lie when it came to him I fell hard and my walls that are ALWAYS up when it comes to guys weren't this time and I let him in... I don't kick myself. I learned alot... when it comes to me, who I am, what I sometimes hide from people and when it comes to what I want and need to have when it comes to a man.
I feel like right now I just have to refocus... on MY LIFE... ME... and GAINING EVERYTHING PART OF MY LIFE BACK. I have to start to put myself 1st... I always put other people's needs and feeling... and pretty much thier life 1st... even before my own. I have been through a lot. went back to school last year and now I am done and I can now start my life... my career... I still want to see the world and travel... I am a VERY STRONG personality and I know I'm a strong person that sometimes can make it hard to find people that can handle it... but know what SG world... that just means that the people that want to know me will work for it and people that can handle it...
here is what I'm going to focus on...
1. Get myself healthy... (ear right, workout, all that stuff... thinking about taking a stripper pole dancing class... lol)
2. Focus on my career of a hairstylist. (I'm already a makeup artist and I need to expand on that one so I can make my career as strong as I am.
3. Get sets done and apply to becomes a Suicide Girl... (I know that its going to take some time but I need to get my sets out and become a hopeful and get the ball rolling.)
4. Start up on roller derby... (its something that i have wanted to start for a year, but it has always been pushed back... I need to stop pushing it back and just go for it.)
and as for anything else... I'll deal with it as it comes... I just have to start to put myself, my life and my needs 1st. Someone once told me that I am awesome... smart , sexy and pretty... and I deserve a man that will be ready to give me everything... its true! I'm not going to settle for anything else anymore...
hope everyone else is doing well... I will try to get my blogging skills back up to where it used to be...
Sorry I haven't been blogging a lot lately... Sorta went through at lot of stuff... and to be honest I learned a lot about myself... and I need to change when it comes to putting othere people's needs and wants before my own.
I'm sitting here and thinking about all the stuff that has happened in the last month and to be honest... sure I have found a piece of myself that I thought I had lost for a very long time... and for that I can look at everything and smile... because i truly feel like I have gained my true self back... I have been making friends and just going out and having fun...
when it comes to guys... I need to not focus on guys at all... lol In the last month I found that I fell for someone that wasn't even in canada... and to be honest I was me and with everything that he was going through I wanted to be supportive and make this thing... whatever it might have been work... but with some issues that we have to face in our lives... as much as I tried, he didn't want to let me support him... (or atleast that is how it felt.) amd sometimes I felt like I was the 2nd prize... I want to be the ONLY prize when it comes to the man that I end up dating again. I won't lie when it came to him I fell hard and my walls that are ALWAYS up when it comes to guys weren't this time and I let him in... I don't kick myself. I learned alot... when it comes to me, who I am, what I sometimes hide from people and when it comes to what I want and need to have when it comes to a man.
I feel like right now I just have to refocus... on MY LIFE... ME... and GAINING EVERYTHING PART OF MY LIFE BACK. I have to start to put myself 1st... I always put other people's needs and feeling... and pretty much thier life 1st... even before my own. I have been through a lot. went back to school last year and now I am done and I can now start my life... my career... I still want to see the world and travel... I am a VERY STRONG personality and I know I'm a strong person that sometimes can make it hard to find people that can handle it... but know what SG world... that just means that the people that want to know me will work for it and people that can handle it...
here is what I'm going to focus on...
1. Get myself healthy... (ear right, workout, all that stuff... thinking about taking a stripper pole dancing class... lol)
2. Focus on my career of a hairstylist. (I'm already a makeup artist and I need to expand on that one so I can make my career as strong as I am.
3. Get sets done and apply to becomes a Suicide Girl... (I know that its going to take some time but I need to get my sets out and become a hopeful and get the ball rolling.)
4. Start up on roller derby...
(its something that i have wanted to start for a year, but it has always been pushed back... I need to stop pushing it back and just go for it.)
and as for anything else... I'll deal with it as it comes... I just have to start to put myself, my life and my needs 1st.
Someone once told me that I am awesome... smart , sexy and pretty... and I deserve a man that will be ready to give me everything... its true! I'm not going to settle for anything else anymore...
hope everyone else is doing well... I will try to get my blogging skills back up to where it used to be...
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As for the sickness thing, drink lots of fluids layer up, Im surprised because alcohol kills bacteria you should have come back from that night out almost cured!
As for the eating healthy and exercising, set a plan and have 1 cheat day.... stick to it and it will come put your mind right and results will come!
Remember always look out for your self, because if you don't you'll be no good to anyone else when they need you the most!