mellisa

its entirley too early too be up, thank goddess for coffee.

i wish i could turn my head off
like it had a switch.
make all those annoying little random thoughts just stop
i lay awake and think so fast it makes me dizzy
screaming in my mind for them to all shut the fuck up
picking apart everything i have ever done
seeing every flaw i have every move i made
maddens me to think so much
i shut my eyes and finally sleep
a sleep full of erotic and scary dreams
only to awake again in the middle of the night
DAM RAT BASTARDS!
they found me again
little beasts of thought trails
they claw and chew on my sanity in these awful hours
ahhh sleep agan at last more fitful dreams wake up covered in sweat with my hand unkowlingly my lover
dawn breaks
i start again

later
lissa