*screams and tears her hair out!* OMFG! I hate everyone damnit! *cries* So E calls me last night (E being the significant other in my life and no not the drug *sigh*) and he's like "do you want to go out saturday?" and I'm thinking how many TIMES do I have to tell you I work on saturday but I calmly control any sudden outbursts and say "I work Saturdays." and he's all "Oh."
So he says -what about before work?- and I'm thinking can I not enjoy my morning of solitude like I normally do? but to be nice I say -Where are you thinking of going?- AND he gets this I dunno uppity tone of voice and says -does it really matter?- and in my head I'm all screaming like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but again I collect myself and go -yes it does- and he mumbles some junk about pool or bowling or something and inside I'm cringing like omg ewww and its not that I don't like playing pool or bowling I just really not in the mood. and he's saying -I want to create a mix, a mingle. I want you to meet my friends and get you out of the house- my thoughts: I don't want to leave the house and spend a day with a bunch of guys. I'll be the only girl there! they'll all be undressing me in their heads and practically drooling.. now don't be all like damn she's full of herself, I'm just factoring in the fact most of these guys haven't seen a chic since last september when they left home for basic. Then if there is any staring E will get all I dunno how to say it other than territorial and cave-manish; you know where the guy puts his arm around you and tries to drag you so close u can't breath and starts being all huggy and kissy and I hate that in public. If you want to mark your territory go find some other piece of ditzy armcandy and get the HELL off me!
*big sigh* E knows I hate meeting new ppl and being in places feeling like I'm surrounded and stuck. Yet, he still drags me into this. I feel like I'm going to hyperventilate and it's only Thursday.
So he says -what about before work?- and I'm thinking can I not enjoy my morning of solitude like I normally do? but to be nice I say -Where are you thinking of going?- AND he gets this I dunno uppity tone of voice and says -does it really matter?- and in my head I'm all screaming like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but again I collect myself and go -yes it does- and he mumbles some junk about pool or bowling or something and inside I'm cringing like omg ewww and its not that I don't like playing pool or bowling I just really not in the mood. and he's saying -I want to create a mix, a mingle. I want you to meet my friends and get you out of the house- my thoughts: I don't want to leave the house and spend a day with a bunch of guys. I'll be the only girl there! they'll all be undressing me in their heads and practically drooling.. now don't be all like damn she's full of herself, I'm just factoring in the fact most of these guys haven't seen a chic since last september when they left home for basic. Then if there is any staring E will get all I dunno how to say it other than territorial and cave-manish; you know where the guy puts his arm around you and tries to drag you so close u can't breath and starts being all huggy and kissy and I hate that in public. If you want to mark your territory go find some other piece of ditzy armcandy and get the HELL off me!
*big sigh* E knows I hate meeting new ppl and being in places feeling like I'm surrounded and stuck. Yet, he still drags me into this. I feel like I'm going to hyperventilate and it's only Thursday.