melixanna

Wow, early mornings really aren't my thing but I am in a WAY better mood now! These last few months haven't been the best but they by far have definitely not been the worst. E joined the Army and is off in training, so I have alot of time to myself. I am completely in fear of driving hence I don't and can't legally anyways if I wanted to. This kind of kills my ability to get out and socialize, which I'm not very good at anyways. Hence, I have only me to occupy me. I have wasted to much time in my life hating myself and how I look and these last few months have taught me that. I love who I am and I love how I look.. if anyone disagrees they can kiss my cute little ass.

For the first time in my life I am totally happy with who I am and what I look like and it is an amazing feeling. To be able to look in a mirror and go -ok, yes there are flaws but that's what makes you unique- Completely and utterly awesome.

Talking about mirrors, out of sheer boredom and being sexually frustrated today. I hung a big mirror on the wall facing my bed, grabbed my pink rabbit and had some fun. All I can say is OMFG why the hell haven't I thought of this sooner. It's totally hot and just wow.

Now more than ever I know I sooo need to find a photographer or something and get a photoset of myself. It would be cool to be a SG but even if that doesn't happen I still so want a photoset of myself. Maybe it's egotistical but I don't care.