meldarko

season changes always trigger this longing
i wake up and i reach out for him, but he's not there anymore
he was never there
he never existed
i've tried to cast the part, and failed
but, i still save a side of my bed for his body

is it healthy to indulge yourself in a dream world?
even if it makes you feel a little less lonely?


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i haven't turned my head for three days...the doctor said i pulled a muscle and he gave me drugs which might be imparing my judgment...

thank you dr. kay, thank you qualitest laboratories, thank you propoxyphene, thank you watson laboratories, thank you cyclobenzaprine...oh and big ups to all my homies at walgreen's pharmacy... peace!!! peace and unity...

every time i open my eyes it's saturday night

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and i really miss making out... the kind of making out that is done for making out's sake alone...

damn i'm tired... it's fucking 1:30 in the am?????

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people hate not knowing