2008 has been the suckiest year by far for me. It started out with SUCH horribleness in my personal life. Such hurt, heartbreak, lies, trials, tribulations all within the month of January. I tried to work on my personal life, but by March, I had decided that my relationship was not meant to proceed and was not worth the effort that I was putting into it , One good thing did happen in January, I joined SG. I became a chat regular and met so many wonderful people. I found my niche and I cannot tell you how so many of you made me smile, even while I was sad from the demise of my relationship, or while I was so critically ill and didn't even know it! So many of you inspired me, cheered me on, dried my tears, and defended me. You will never now how truly grateful I am.
Yes, I have struggled this year. I have, thankfully, had a job and even kept my part time job. I don't make that much money, and I am losing money at my part time job....stupid winkle and economy. Unfortunately, almost the instant that I had made my decision about ending my relationship, he lost his job. And was unemployed for a few months. And did not get unemployment. And was severely depressed. Then I continued to try to keep everything together, even to my own detriment. I was stretched to the very limit, stressed, extremely poor, unhappy, in charge of everything, and was still trying to recover to not be critically ill. I do not know how I made it through. I can only guess that my "happy place" (aka SG Chat) was a big factor in the fact that I survived.
Thankfully, he got a job.....part time, but it was a start. And he was planning on finding another job or going full time. And as of right now, he still has the part time job. I did not want to leave until he was more stable and could find a roomie. I have had plans to move in with Lisa....rent-free too!!!
and then deciding where I want to go. I know that my decision to try to help and keep struggling is not appreciated, and I do not know why I am still here......and why I keep trying to help out....even to my own detriment.
SIGH.
Please let 2009 be the best year ever for everyone. I think that we all deserve it and desperately need it. Here is one of my favorite songs that expresses just that sentiment. CHEERS TO US!!!! *raises glass*
The Merriest!!!!
Yes, I have struggled this year. I have, thankfully, had a job and even kept my part time job. I don't make that much money, and I am losing money at my part time job....stupid winkle and economy. Unfortunately, almost the instant that I had made my decision about ending my relationship, he lost his job. And was unemployed for a few months. And did not get unemployment. And was severely depressed. Then I continued to try to keep everything together, even to my own detriment. I was stretched to the very limit, stressed, extremely poor, unhappy, in charge of everything, and was still trying to recover to not be critically ill. I do not know how I made it through. I can only guess that my "happy place" (aka SG Chat) was a big factor in the fact that I survived.
Thankfully, he got a job.....part time, but it was a start. And he was planning on finding another job or going full time. And as of right now, he still has the part time job. I did not want to leave until he was more stable and could find a roomie. I have had plans to move in with Lisa....rent-free too!!!
and then deciding where I want to go. I know that my decision to try to help and keep struggling is not appreciated, and I do not know why I am still here......and why I keep trying to help out....even to my own detriment. SIGH.
Please let 2009 be the best year ever for everyone. I think that we all deserve it and desperately need it. Here is one of my favorite songs that expresses just that sentiment. CHEERS TO US!!!! *raises glass*
The Merriest!!!!
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explodingboy1:
i will definitely raise my glass to that, hear hear
skullgrid:
yeah i'll raise a glass to that last bit too 