melaniac

I watched Stranger Than Fiction today and I realized
why I dont make friends well...

I am a tragedy....

fuck.


But really, I am pretty awkward and sarcastic and shy and wierd and sometimes just fake....
they always told me to "fake it till ya make it"
Im still fakin it.....I hope I make it soon.
Im sure people can tell that Im not as perky and happy as I act.....

I was always happy when I had upward manic episodes....and it was a real happiness.....
but the meds stop me from really feeling anything now.
Now I am left with my sarcasm and fake smile.

Its been a few years....I think I need a drink