Wednesday Feb 06, 2013

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Ginger Brew Ale is soooo good! Stout ginger flavor.....ginger ale will never be the same.
godfather:
Great choice! Love it!

Sunday Feb 03, 2013

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My body hates me! I have been sick on and off since before Christmas. I have been in bed for 2 weeks. I am hoping I dont have to drop my classes for the quarter from missing too much. Sucks!!!

Filed my damn taxes. Hate that shit.
I got back $2,000 less than last year. WTF?
I made below $20,000 and spent about $19,000 on...
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godfather:
I am so sorry about your health. And the tragedy compounds when one looks at your latest photos. Aside from your tremendous beauty you looked so happy. Prayers to you.
melaniac:
Thank you all <3

Thursday Dec 20, 2012

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Police men are searching all the cars parking in the lot across the street from my apt. I am creepin through the blinds! Tehehehe.....Watching Law and Order and watching possible police bust across the street = awesome morning! Out of meds and havent slept in 3 days = fucked up.
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godfather:
Praying for you.
melaniac:
slept for 22 hours. thank goodness for that. i was getting creepy and zombie-like. tomorrow should be back to usual....let's hope for better than usual....wink

Sunday Dec 16, 2012

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Finals are over! YAY! I did amazingly.....and kept up my 3.9 GPA. I had such great instructors this quarter! 2 more quarters and I am a graduate!!!!!
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ray_man:
Awesome!!!
melaniac:
Thanks Yall!
smile

Sunday Dec 09, 2012

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What does my doctor suggest when I tell him I am worried about taking so many meds?..........TAKE MORE MEDS! omg....I am so confused by doctors. I say I am worried about my body and taking so many pain killers daily and the answer is to just take more because I am not at a dangerous level of use yet.
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godfather:
try another doctor
ideal_aquarian:
Our society is engrained to take more meds. Yuck. definately try another MD.

Friday Nov 30, 2012

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Fail X4....I couldnt stop myself. All wounds heal with time.
I am thinking about getting a cane to walk with like Dr House....lol
I can hardly stand up and barely walk around. I force myself to though. Sitting down is aweful. Laying flat on the floor help a little.
New MRI this afternoon. Lower back lumbar spine to look at my herniated disc and sciatic...
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boosterp:
Pain absolutely sucks, especially when what is supposed to help has it's own negative consequences. Take care of yourself.
melaniac:
Thank you dear

Wednesday Nov 28, 2012

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Mood swings are becoming scary.....I see a hospital visit in my near future. I can see myself falling. I almost started cutting again but thankfully talked myself out of it early enough this time. I think the pain killers are causing my bipolar meds to be less effective. I am falling apart. I try so hard to look normal and happy but I am losing...
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stiles:
Hang in there, OK? I know it's tough but you can do it. When did your mom go?
melaniac:
I am trying to make it through. Thank goodness my friends live right around the corner so they can be here in a minute if i need their help. Mom left a few months ago. I cam home from taking my last final in school and everything was gone from the apt and they were gone. I cant reach them.

Monday Nov 26, 2012

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Talking to the ex......hope this doesnt go south for me. Something is just telling me that its going to be okay. confused
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melaniac:
he thinks we are soul mates......hmmmm. dont want things getting complicated.....but seems as if they already are.
godfather:
simplicity is the best and the most natural.
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