_Suffocation_
Last night I spent a lot of time thinking. Just thinking.."how am I gonna DO all of this????" It worries me so much. I feel like I'm dangling; at the end of my rope. Seriously. It's a suffocating feeling. I evaluated my options. Each and every one of them. And I came to a disturbing conclusion. I have but 2 options. Only 2. Do this, live this out.. participate in life, put up with the shit.. or.. I can simply NOT do this, NOT live this out, NOT participate in life, NOT put up with this shit. Hmmm. Alas, I've decided to step back onto the rollercoaster, otherwise known as life.
Although this time.. I don't have any motion sickness medicine. *sigh*
I feel the tears coming.
Ciao.
Last night I spent a lot of time thinking. Just thinking.."how am I gonna DO all of this????" It worries me so much. I feel like I'm dangling; at the end of my rope. Seriously. It's a suffocating feeling. I evaluated my options. Each and every one of them. And I came to a disturbing conclusion. I have but 2 options. Only 2. Do this, live this out.. participate in life, put up with the shit.. or.. I can simply NOT do this, NOT live this out, NOT participate in life, NOT put up with this shit. Hmmm. Alas, I've decided to step back onto the rollercoaster, otherwise known as life.
Although this time.. I don't have any motion sickness medicine. *sigh*
I feel the tears coming.
Ciao.