melancholia

i was talking (listening) to a guy at work today, who indirectly offered some pretty good advice.

we've recently moved to an open plan office, so i've gone from sitting in an empty room for most of the week to being surrounded by at least ten people every day. its odd, and means a lot less facebooking during the working hours, but you get to...
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ah...writing.

during registration, break, lunch, inbetween teacher talking time in lessons, after school, every night, revision, in coffee shops, on buses, in cars, on trains, left deliberately on trains (oh the artisan), waiting for people, holding people up....writing.

i produced five full A4 books of writing in the space of two years. not to mention the endless half filled notebooks i have that are riddled...
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today was the last day my manager and i would work together (as she is off on holiday and i leave next friday) so we had a weird goodbye day where neither of us felt like we were going anywhere

still, it was cool. we went out for a mmmmmmmoooooohhhheeeeeeetttttooooo (rum based mint and lime drink), and she gave me some cool earrings as a...
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alright so i can conclude three reasons for the mood i have carted around for the past three days.

a) i am an ungrateful, selfish wench.

b) i am in love (and a romantic) so if my heart's not happy, nothing else is right.

c) i have severe PMT

i will draw my own answers. the point is, no one wants to hear about it....
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ach.

what exactly, IS, the matter?

everything is going well.

most things are going well.

which is more than a lot of people.

new job- tick. new town- tick. new chance of life- tick! all good!

i have made contact with some friends, i have lost some weight, (albeit not much, but enough to remember why i don't eat junk every day, and the benefits...
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things are still plodding on. i've found an area i'd like to live in, although it seems a very popular area so i'm not holding out for finding somewhere immediately. it would be good to be living by the coast though, i have a feeling i might be needing long beach walks and sleepy coffee shops over pubs, clubs and cinemas.

i have found an...
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hokey pokey

i'm watching, god knows why, 'what lies beneath' on the tv (which i havent seen yet- despite it being all of ten years old!) and i'm in the flat by myself, and the windows are open cos we're drying out our kitchen floor, and i'm really scared (haha!) so i'm going to write a blog and keep my eyes off that creepy mirror...
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things have been working out really nicely recently, which makes a bit of a change

feels like its been a really tough year so far.

but, i've been offered a new job and this will mean relocating to a much nicer town. it'll mean a new flat, new friends, new opportunities, a chance to be a new person..... all these exciting things!

naturally i'm shit...
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i'm planning the great escape.

i've been taking a lot of stock on things lately.

i've recently been through a really bad patch with someone who is so incredibly important to me, and during that time i came to realise every reason i missed them, every reason why i would stand by them despite the difficulties we went through and how lucky i was to have found them in the...
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