Wednesday May 25, 2011

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i have a dilemma.....
since i have broken up with my ex, i have kept dreaming about my 1st boyfriend, Hugh. Not just dreaming about him but i keep seeing him too, it turns out he works a few shops down from where I work. we were together for 2 years when we were both 16. we were inseperable, perfect for each other, then i went nasty and threw it all away. i lost the only guy that has ever loved me for me. I never realised how much i hurt him until this recent break-up because i felt how painful a break-up can be.
one of the 1st things my mum said to me was 'now you know how you made hugh feel.' Harsh, but true.

I want to get back in touch with him because i want to apologise and actually mean it. to genuinely say sorry because i was vile to him.

the problem is about 2 years ago we got back in contact, and i hurt him again. he told me he never wanted to see or hear from me again because i was a terrible person. i dont know if he really meant this, and should i respect it. or should i just say sorry.

i do still love him, i always will because we shared so much together. i just dont know what to do.
this is him now.....



This is us... almost 7 years ago...so i know i look very differnt now!!!




OHH what to doo! frown
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strider57:
Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice, shame on you! I believe you are sincere in your desire to make amends and it good that you've accept the consequences of your actions on Hugh life, but if I were in Hugh's shoes, I'd probably find it pretty damn difficult to have anything to do with you. Trust is always earned, never given, and once broken, almost impossible to repair!! HOWEVER, I don't want to discourage you from making amends, because it's the right thing to do and it could possibly offer Hugh much needed closure. Therefore, I'd suggest you make the effort, but make sure you know where your head really is before going there. Having just recently ended a relationship, you may not be thinking with the clarity you might have a little further removed from the situation. Give it a couple of months, and if you feel the same way, then definitely make the effort to talk to Hugh.
meko01:
thank you everyone.
very wise words =)

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