meko

After much talking with a friend Steven last night and a few hours of tears, he managed to coax out of me that i think its best i should finish with pete.....
i havent spoken to him on the phone since xmas eve.... and only have had one text saying happy new year....
and we have exchanged about 5 sentances online.... think it has come to an end....
i do not like feeling that im not wanted.
but still in my head im thinking im over-reacting he just has soo much work on and no phone, so im torn.
i know the relationship has nothing in it in the long run. not totally sure why we got together in the first place.
steven made me realise that i shouldnt be in a relationship, because if i dont love myself, or even like myself then how is someone going to get close enough to love me....
think i need to fix myself and let someone that loves me for me find me.
urgh horrible feelings....just need to sit by the sea and listen to the waves, that always calms me....
just dont know how to get in touch with pete thou, cant exactly email him!

yuk lol
x