mei

i got drunk last night. since i quit taking my meds, alcohol doesn't mess with me as much... but that's not really a good thing. i shouldn't drink all that much, because i don't like the person i become when i've been drinking. we went out to a bar where my friends know the bartender, so she kept bringing us free drinks and shots, and just putting them down in front of us. what is there to do but drink them, at that point?

i was going to go on vacation this week, but then i didn't. forgot to plan it, forgot to do anything to make it happen. i guess that i'll try to make it happen this weekend, at least a one-day-long vacation.

the sky is blue today. just blue.

i think i'm still melancholy.

i hope it gets better soon... funny, how when i'm overly down, i can't write, but when i'm on meds, i can't write. grrrr.

something will happen to make this better soon, i'm sure. .

it DID help, to have all y'alls tell me nice things. that makes me feel better..