mei

i drank so much at a cocktail party last night.. rum and coke is really dangerous. i was a tremendous flirt.. trying really hard to get a girl to smooch with me, but alas, i was unsuccessful. also said some things i probably shouldn't have, but oh well. my hangover is going away. the best part, though, was that there was a fire - it was in a backyard, and we had a fire pit. someone brought marshmallows, so we needed to get sticks to roast them. i found someone with a pocketknife, and cut sticks out of the brush pile. kneehigh vinyl boots, floor length slit leopard print dress, and i was cutting sticks to roast marshmallows! it was awesome.

i wish i could figure out my sex drive. i have a boy, and i love him very much, but i'm so much more attracted, in general, to girls than boys! didn't find this out until i'd fallen in love with the boy, of course. so weird.

there's honeysuckle on our front porch. everything smells sweet. i like to pick them, and suck out the one drop of flower-scented sugar. mmmm..

maybe i should take a towel into the backyard and sit in the sun. i haven't been outside enough lately - haven't been taking my meds which makes me a homebody.

yawn..