wow...most everything sucks. very very much. ive never been so damn depressed in all my life...not like i am right now. but i'll fake a smile to satisfy, and save others from coming down with me. its alright...things will be alright eventually.
i just feel so alone right now without my best friend. and you never know how truely happy you are till its taken away and youre sad again.
i hate myself everyday for pretty much doing this to myself...it wasnt all me...not in the least (haha..if it was id have problems) but yeah...so now everything that makes me happy is gone...and im just getting drunk and fucked up everyday trying to make myself feel better (which doesnt REALLY work) but yeah...self destruction at its best.
dammit...i know i'll be fine eventually....i think.
i just feel so alone right now without my best friend. and you never know how truely happy you are till its taken away and youre sad again.
i hate myself everyday for pretty much doing this to myself...it wasnt all me...not in the least (haha..if it was id have problems) but yeah...so now everything that makes me happy is gone...and im just getting drunk and fucked up everyday trying to make myself feel better (which doesnt REALLY work) but yeah...self destruction at its best.
dammit...i know i'll be fine eventually....i think.
Well, sorry to hear shit in 'chester isn't going well. I'm actually back in town for the weekend, but I'm stuck w/ family obligations, so I can't cheer you up. Hang in there and get ready to kick life in the ass when the opportunity shows up!