Oki, so I got my vert. labre done yesturday, and my half sleeve worked on today, to come home to new's that my dad is now going to be laid off for one month. He's already been laid off twice this year. This will result in my being the only income into the house, because unemployment wont get here till about his fourth week off of work and we were so far behind in bills as it is, and the credit cards are maxed out from putting other bills on them, and I'm $750 in debt to my mom and I can see how much they really need this money right now.
But I to need my money, for a 170$ ticket, that I might or might not have to pay, this laid off thing might give me some 'leverage' in court, my being the only income, as well as 'leverage' on keeping my liscense, as my being the only income and living out in the middle of no where I need my liscense to keep money coming into this house. I'm going to have to demand a lot more hours double in fact of what I'm recieving now at work, and I will walk out if I fail to see more hours.... and even at that, I might have to get another job, and work both 40 hours a week, that's 80 hours a week of work, this is little sleep from me and probably little updating to no updating for me for some time.
This is going to be a very stressfull time, I'm already freaking out, I shouldn't have to handle this, I should be tucked away safe somewhere on a college campus learning, absorbing knowledge into my young mind. Learning about things, and obtaining the skills I need to do whatever it is that I decide I'm going to do in the future. This isn't fair, life's always gave me so much more strife than it gave everyone else my age that I know... and it's supposed to be making me a better person but I'm just a girl worked to the bone and still getting shit on. I can stay here and strugle with them or I can go out and strugle on my own, either way it results that I'm still in debt, still fucking fucked, and still pending on having a liscense. It all makes you want to throw in the towel screaming your head off, drive down the highway at unmentionable speeds, running everyone off the road before you take an awful turn for the worse right into the highway divider. One day everything's looking up and seems almost managable and then the next... you're so fucking fucked. FUCK.
If it were possible, I'd sue god.
But I to need my money, for a 170$ ticket, that I might or might not have to pay, this laid off thing might give me some 'leverage' in court, my being the only income, as well as 'leverage' on keeping my liscense, as my being the only income and living out in the middle of no where I need my liscense to keep money coming into this house. I'm going to have to demand a lot more hours double in fact of what I'm recieving now at work, and I will walk out if I fail to see more hours.... and even at that, I might have to get another job, and work both 40 hours a week, that's 80 hours a week of work, this is little sleep from me and probably little updating to no updating for me for some time.
This is going to be a very stressfull time, I'm already freaking out, I shouldn't have to handle this, I should be tucked away safe somewhere on a college campus learning, absorbing knowledge into my young mind. Learning about things, and obtaining the skills I need to do whatever it is that I decide I'm going to do in the future. This isn't fair, life's always gave me so much more strife than it gave everyone else my age that I know... and it's supposed to be making me a better person but I'm just a girl worked to the bone and still getting shit on. I can stay here and strugle with them or I can go out and strugle on my own, either way it results that I'm still in debt, still fucking fucked, and still pending on having a liscense. It all makes you want to throw in the towel screaming your head off, drive down the highway at unmentionable speeds, running everyone off the road before you take an awful turn for the worse right into the highway divider. One day everything's looking up and seems almost managable and then the next... you're so fucking fucked. FUCK.
If it were possible, I'd sue god.
apologees:
god's broke. dont ya read the bible?