Another good blog homework! @missy @rambo @lyxzen @bloghomework
So what am I afraid of? If I had to really sit down and think about it.. there's nothing that really terrifies me. Nothing like the dark, or snakes or monsters. Part of the reason for that I believe is because of everything I've been through..
So I finally figured out what I am truly afraid of, my dreams. I never have good dreams, and I always lucid dream. But my dreams are always the same. Maybe there's different scenery or different people but they always have the same resolve.
I've struggled with a lot of sexual assault in my life. (Not to get too personal) I've been assaulted 4 times. Twice by the same person and the last time very recently by a male photographer when I first started on the SG path.
The people who are closest to me never let me forget how strong I am, and honestly I never let it bother me. I mean yea it's on my mind whenever I gaze out the window or whenever it's quiet but I can usually block it out... But the scariest part about it all, is knowing you have to sleep and there's no way to get away from it.
Some dreams aren't as bad as others, but some times I wake up and feel like I've been running all night. It takes a lot out of you because the dreams are so vivid you feel like you aren't resting at all.
Sometimes when it comes time to go to bed and I lay down with my boyfriend I just stare at the ceiling and I think he can sense it too. That there's absolutely nothing either one of us can do, and it's scary because I must face my dreams alone.
Hope you all have enjoyed the read!
Meera❤️❤️❤️
