I am reading 'Past Mortem' by Ben Elton. Yesterday I read a particularly vivid sex scene that took me by suprise with fisting, pissing and anal sex.
Anyway, the girl was a self abuser and it reminded me of the film "The Secretary" with that girl, Maggie Gyllenhaal. She would stab herself on the inner thighs with sharp things and kept a box of torture instruments.
Anyway, yesterday I ran twice (fucked up - i know). Just as I was going to sleep I cramped in the calf. I didnt get rid of it right away and actually enjoyed the pain. I let it go too far though and felt like I was going to pass out.
I had to go out on the balcony to cool down and recover.
I cant remember consciously enjoying pain before.
Anyway, the girl was a self abuser and it reminded me of the film "The Secretary" with that girl, Maggie Gyllenhaal. She would stab herself on the inner thighs with sharp things and kept a box of torture instruments.
Anyway, yesterday I ran twice (fucked up - i know). Just as I was going to sleep I cramped in the calf. I didnt get rid of it right away and actually enjoyed the pain. I let it go too far though and felt like I was going to pass out.
I had to go out on the balcony to cool down and recover.
I cant remember consciously enjoying pain before.