mctavisch

I totally just wrote a new blog and SG erased it...doesn't help my day....

I've been all over the place lately...I seriously am beginning to believe I have issues. It seems as if on cue that after having a good week and things going well, that things just turn shitty. I won't go into it, but the last couple of days have been really shitty with stuff goin on in my life.

I really hate when this happens, because it completely hijacks my emotions and turns me into a completely different person, someone I don't like being. I don't feel like doing anything, working, going out, chilling w/friends or w/anyone really. It's like a black hole that just sucks me in and I can't get out of it.

It sucks, because it skews everyone's perception of me, and most everyone doesn't understand. I just don't talk about it with lots of people because I don't want to be someone who's always upset around them. I hate the down part...because it ends up being much longer...marked by brief periods of happiness.

I don't like writing sad stuff in here, but it seems like I do for the most part. When things are going well, I guess I just don't feel the need to put it into words. When things are not as good...I feel the need to express it. Can't really explain it. It just happens...