I totally just wrote a new blog and SG erased it...doesn't help my day....
I've been all over the place lately...I seriously am beginning to believe I have issues. It seems as if on cue that after having a good week and things going well, that things just turn shitty. I won't go into it, but the last couple of days have been really shitty with stuff goin on in my life.
I really hate when this happens, because it completely hijacks my emotions and turns me into a completely different person, someone I don't like being. I don't feel like doing anything, working, going out, chilling w/friends or w/anyone really. It's like a black hole that just sucks me in and I can't get out of it.
It sucks, because it skews everyone's perception of me, and most everyone doesn't understand. I just don't talk about it with lots of people because I don't want to be someone who's always upset around them. I hate the down part...because it ends up being much longer...marked by brief periods of happiness.
I don't like writing sad stuff in here, but it seems like I do for the most part. When things are going well, I guess I just don't feel the need to put it into words. When things are not as good...I feel the need to express it. Can't really explain it. It just happens...
I've been all over the place lately...I seriously am beginning to believe I have issues. It seems as if on cue that after having a good week and things going well, that things just turn shitty. I won't go into it, but the last couple of days have been really shitty with stuff goin on in my life.
I really hate when this happens, because it completely hijacks my emotions and turns me into a completely different person, someone I don't like being. I don't feel like doing anything, working, going out, chilling w/friends or w/anyone really. It's like a black hole that just sucks me in and I can't get out of it.
It sucks, because it skews everyone's perception of me, and most everyone doesn't understand. I just don't talk about it with lots of people because I don't want to be someone who's always upset around them. I hate the down part...because it ends up being much longer...marked by brief periods of happiness.
I don't like writing sad stuff in here, but it seems like I do for the most part. When things are going well, I guess I just don't feel the need to put it into words. When things are not as good...I feel the need to express it. Can't really explain it. It just happens...
sammarie:
I have a picture to express almost everything I go through, because seeing that picture, that message, helps me to know that there is someone out there that gets exactly what I am going through. When I read your blog this one popped into my head.
So yeah, I get it.
