I am so completely burned out on my job its almost scary. I feel like I'm going to lose it and screw something up soon if I can't find something else to do. I didn't get a degree in History to work at a bank forever. I need to find something else to do and soon! Any ideas?
So the last week was interesting...I heard that my ex and her new boy-toy didn't work out too well, so I derive some sort of sick pleasure from that. Though considering the circumstances, maybe it's somewhat of a vindictive pleasure...
Work was busy, but that's going to be the case for the next month or so. It's funny...I work the "late" shift from 1030-700, but...
Read More
Work was busy, but that's going to be the case for the next month or so. It's funny...I work the "late" shift from 1030-700, but...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
inara:
Poker at 7!
inara:
Probably better you didn't make it. I ended up playing, and it was so ridiculously awful. I started going all in every hand just to get out. I saw so many idiots who didn't have a single clue how to play suck out on so many hands. So many bad beats. It was painful. It wasn't even fun.
I can't sleep....I just can't....
The heart hurts...and won't stop hurting...
I just can't move on for some reason, it doesn't make sense but I can't.
The heart hurts...and won't stop hurting...
I just can't move on for some reason, it doesn't make sense but I can't.
accuser:
I know the feeling. It took me a long time to really be functional again after my last big break up, and it never completely goes away. You just sort of learn to live with it until you find someone else to focus your attention on. But it definitely sucks.
Even a couple years later, I found myself the other day picking old scabs for no reason and I looked her up on Google. Haven't talked to her or even really thought about her in over a year and a half. Turns out she ended up with the guy she swore was just a friend (swearing that because I asked if something was going on between them... yeah), and they're engaged and moving to England. She just immediately jumped into it with this guys after more than 5 years with me. Threw me for a serious loop. But by the end of the day I was over it, and my only real concern became "Why the hell did that bother me so much?"
Anyways, good luck man. I know it's rough. I've been there. I recommend turning that self-destructive energy toward something a little more constructive, though- like working out. It hurts, so it fills the urge, but once you're becoming functional again you'll notice you actually did yourself a favor.
Even a couple years later, I found myself the other day picking old scabs for no reason and I looked her up on Google. Haven't talked to her or even really thought about her in over a year and a half. Turns out she ended up with the guy she swore was just a friend (swearing that because I asked if something was going on between them... yeah), and they're engaged and moving to England. She just immediately jumped into it with this guys after more than 5 years with me. Threw me for a serious loop. But by the end of the day I was over it, and my only real concern became "Why the hell did that bother me so much?"
Anyways, good luck man. I know it's rough. I've been there. I recommend turning that self-destructive energy toward something a little more constructive, though- like working out. It hurts, so it fills the urge, but once you're becoming functional again you'll notice you actually did yourself a favor.
This weekend was pretty dull and crappy to begin with, but the rest of today just took the cake. So my ex was out and about today, house shopping--that's an entirely different story--and wanted to stop by. As I had been sitting here day-drinking as well as some other extracurriculars, inexplicably I said sure. Despite everything that has happened I still can't help but love...
Read More
Read More
So I shaved my head again....or at least cut it really short. Going for the David Beckham look I guess. I got tired of messing with it every morning and the chick who normally cuts my hair is out of town for the next two weeks, so it's all her fault really, hahaha. Anyways, yah it's much shorter....pictures to come.
reid:
you must get back here! it's beautiful!
dejah:
she's a doll, seriously.
i'm already attached to her, it's going to be so hard to give her to the shelter.
at least it's going to be the east valley no kill shelter. she's worth the drive.
she's too sweet to not find an owner.
i'm already attached to her, it's going to be so hard to give her to the shelter.
at least it's going to be the east valley no kill shelter. she's worth the drive.
she's too sweet to not find an owner.
So to expand on my previous post....I happened to run into a person who was a mutual friend of myself and my ex the other day. I didn't even bring this up, but she told me that my ex was seeing someone else. I wasn't surprised, I more or less knew it was going on. When I asked how long it had been, she said...
Read More
Read More
Soo...finding out you were cheated on is really awesome....
reid:
im sorry! that is terrible. You should join the SGAZ group asap
Well good news first...my little brother's moving back! Not sure if it's a great idea for him to move back out here to live with this new girlfriend of his, but hey, he's a big kid and can make his own decisions. He turns 21 this summer so I get the privilege of making sure he never forgets it! That'll definitely be a good time....
Read More
Read More
So I have a blog elsewhere....I guess I'll copy n' paste for the benefit/demise of everyone....this was the most recent....
So last week was pretty miserable....work continues to be the same shit over and over again....I feel like I'm banging my head against a wall without any hope. Turned down yet again for a promotion that went to someone less qualified...I don't have the stomach...
Read More
So last week was pretty miserable....work continues to be the same shit over and over again....I feel like I'm banging my head against a wall without any hope. Turned down yet again for a promotion that went to someone less qualified...I don't have the stomach...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
hugzombie:
I hate California. I need a change.
hugzombie:
For me, the Columbus thing was just an opportunity that was presented. I figured, why not?
You have a degree in history??? That's hot. No seriously. HOT.