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So it's 7:20am and I'm waking up on my first day as a single man again. And I can tell you that this is not something I wanted to happen. I came out here as Candace's boyfriend - looking to spend a few days with her to help her relax. Instead, I'm going home single ... and I can't help but wonder if I added to the stress. I know this is something she needs ... she needs time alone to figure out her life - but we had figured out a lot together in the past while, I just don't know why we couldn't manage that again. I know my emotions will really begin to eat me up when I arrive home - I won't lie, I am hurt. But at the same time I'm still worried about her ... I still care about her ... and I still love her. Disregard the comment she made in her journal about being a cold, heartless bitch. She isn't any of those three. She's confused ... and she just needs her friends. I may leave SG behind for awhile ... there are too many memories on here. And when I see them it adds to the pain ... I'm trying to outrun my feelings but they're slowly chasing me down.

EDIT: I am NOT, I repeat, am NOT leaving the site ... I may not be as active though over the next little while. I just have to deal with my feelings right now.