damn damn damn crappity hell damn fart. why oh why do i have to find an amazingly beautiful boy that i can talk to about anything and connect with on so many creative levels and i go and ruin it by not being able to look at him with out thinking how beautiful he is and how we connect on so many levels. crap! why can't he be a jerky asshole who doesn't make me feel like i'm not hot enough to hang out with him. holy hell. i want to say something so bad... but i dont want to lose what awesomeness we have now. i want it to be the same but with dryhumping.
fuck my brain.
fuck my brain.