Full Circle
This Coming Sunday I will pose for some photos that are being used for some art works Draw/paint by Emily Wong, whom is fascinated by hair for a 4 part story, all entailing birds.
Directly following this short shoot,Tony Yang and Laura Kicey will document Ant shave my head.
I have come to the decision after long debate and talks with my loved ones and friends.
So far about 90% of the people whom have heard of my plan support my decision.
the other 10% really does not matter.
I wanted to think i was not one of those women whom were not attached to their hair since i have been struggling with mine since i was 10. but as life moves on we find out truths to our delusions as we grow. I have grown now to know that part of me is actually a little emotional about the whole thing. when I walk past the mirror and see my long locks frame my face i feel a sadness knowing it will be all gone shortly. a little sickness in my stomach. Like I'm losing a puppy or something.
But the decision is made. My mother, SO and best friends support me.
ITS ONLY HAIR!
The hardest part will be the 1st day at work. the surprised looks and the questions that i don't have a one word answer to.
WHY?
because i need to start fresh, hair wise, mentally, and metaphorically will be my answer.
I think a rash action like a woman shaving her head when she is not terminally ill nor mentally unstable makes others feel inadequate about a response or a reaction.
and then impose those feelings on the bald person.
I say i am coming FULL CIRCLE because the last time i had my head shaved was when i was 12.
My mother felt i had done such a bang up job pulling out my hair and leaving all sorts of patches that were not able to be hidden that she felt a full buzz would let my hair growth be healthier.
I then in middle school had to wear scarves and bandannas to school where the boys and girls would tease me and occasionally pull it off and run or play keep away with it.
sad and horrible visual i know.
I survived.
Now it's my own doing and I'm trying not to have an anticipated chip on my shoulder so to speak when i am questioned about it. like not take out that past anger and embarrassment, or resentment on people today.
I have nothing to prove. I am who i am, and i have certain cards dealt to me that i will just play and others will just have to deal with their own feelings about it.
After all that fear subsides in me, i will actually be able to have fun with it.
I usally carry myself with confidence, and as long as i maintain that presence and hold my bald head high, i think i will be fine, and actually look forward to this new look in future photoshoots and not try to hide this time around.
This Coming Sunday I will pose for some photos that are being used for some art works Draw/paint by Emily Wong, whom is fascinated by hair for a 4 part story, all entailing birds.
Directly following this short shoot,Tony Yang and Laura Kicey will document Ant shave my head.
I have come to the decision after long debate and talks with my loved ones and friends.
So far about 90% of the people whom have heard of my plan support my decision.
the other 10% really does not matter.
I wanted to think i was not one of those women whom were not attached to their hair since i have been struggling with mine since i was 10. but as life moves on we find out truths to our delusions as we grow. I have grown now to know that part of me is actually a little emotional about the whole thing. when I walk past the mirror and see my long locks frame my face i feel a sadness knowing it will be all gone shortly. a little sickness in my stomach. Like I'm losing a puppy or something.
But the decision is made. My mother, SO and best friends support me.
ITS ONLY HAIR!
The hardest part will be the 1st day at work. the surprised looks and the questions that i don't have a one word answer to.
WHY?
because i need to start fresh, hair wise, mentally, and metaphorically will be my answer.
I think a rash action like a woman shaving her head when she is not terminally ill nor mentally unstable makes others feel inadequate about a response or a reaction.
and then impose those feelings on the bald person.
I say i am coming FULL CIRCLE because the last time i had my head shaved was when i was 12.
My mother felt i had done such a bang up job pulling out my hair and leaving all sorts of patches that were not able to be hidden that she felt a full buzz would let my hair growth be healthier.
I then in middle school had to wear scarves and bandannas to school where the boys and girls would tease me and occasionally pull it off and run or play keep away with it.
sad and horrible visual i know.
I survived.
Now it's my own doing and I'm trying not to have an anticipated chip on my shoulder so to speak when i am questioned about it. like not take out that past anger and embarrassment, or resentment on people today.
I have nothing to prove. I am who i am, and i have certain cards dealt to me that i will just play and others will just have to deal with their own feelings about it.
After all that fear subsides in me, i will actually be able to have fun with it.
I usally carry myself with confidence, and as long as i maintain that presence and hold my bald head high, i think i will be fine, and actually look forward to this new look in future photoshoots and not try to hide this time around.
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You know some will react inappropriately and you probably also know that some will be moved by your action. Your posts and progressions have always been really interesting but this is positively inspiring. I salute you and am eager to hear how it goes from here.
Bravo.