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this is me keeping my Chin up by DrewYoon

So Megan called me yesterday and said hey got any dinner plans, What a pleasant surprise, she also gave me a $75 massage gift certificate to our fav spa. and a lovely candle, she is always bringing me gifts. I'm gonna miss her so much. She has been alone too since her SO has moved to FL ahead of her. she moves in May.
So we had a bite to eat and she hung out with me at the loft for a little bit.

I have been having Insomnia lately, Stress, Being out of the country, the clocks going forward and such, So Sunday i got a box of Simply Sleep by Tylonol. it works but last night i took 2 and Ant called me from Austin and we talked for about half and hour, He said he missed me and was taking the time to reflect, and that we are in dire need of space, since we keep the exact same schedule, I don't disagree, it's not easy working and living in the same place, you don't have much to talk about.
He comes home tonight.
So i only got a few hours of sleep, so i woke up at 7:30, emailed my director saying i would be in around 12:30-1:00, i needed some sleep, there was no way i was going to work on 3 hrs of sleep! I have no clue whats up with my inner clock, but it's all fucked up.
My shoot with a Disabled male model has been pushed to Sunday, I havn't done a shoot Since December, Since my birthday to be exact. I feel a little rusty.
I intend to go out to dinner with Gadget, Suri and Clover tomorrow.
I'm not usually great around a lot of females, but i'm pushing myself. " SPACE"!
and i found someone whom can appreciate Diane Arbus show to go with. I shoot with him all the time, and his work reminds me of hers in a way and he already lives in NY.

Also yesterday i found 2 fantastic photographers whom want me to come shoot with them, when you see their work you will know why it makes me giddy, one is in Montreal and the other in CA.
this one and this one too
this brings my spirits way up, I'm like 5 ft 2 and closer to 40 than 35 and these amazingly talented guys what to shoot me. Fuck ya!

taking it one hour at a time!

thx to all of you for being there for me, You are my therapy indeed.