So Jerm invited me over for steaks, I had the play to go to tonight but I had time and I went over. I was dressed up for a change because of the play. Greg was there, he was acting wierder than usual. Jerms mom was there of course, she had made deviled eggs, she put pickle relish in them I'd never had them like that. And Susan was there too, she's the mother of Greg's ex wife which made us an odd group. But in small towns you can't really have enemys, not easily anyway. Cause you have to run into them wherever you go ya know? You have to be able to stand around and shoot the breeze with people you wish you'd never have to see again. And Jerms bad about bringing people together that way. Probably because he needs forgiving more than anyone else. He says he's been pretty clean but when he calls me from work I can tell he's fucked up. I think he's just sober at home. Which is about two days out of the week.
Then Jerm's friend from work came over. This guy was wearing major blingage. And his pants were baggy to his knees, no kidding his ginormous belt buckle that would put rodeo cowboys to shame was at his knees. He came over talking about how Jerm was his best friend. And then I found out why, Jerm was loaning him 50 dollars. Apparently Jerm buys him food when they are at work too. I guess it's trickle down economics, Jerm leaches off of me and then this guy comes and leaches off of him. Which is ironic because he stands there with all this gold draped all over him. Jerm asked him where he got it and the guy said "I robbed somebody, I have to stop doing that" completely serious. And Jerm talks about him with that excitement in his voice like he does when he thinks he's in love, which is why he's giving away everything to this guy. This guy, Jason, was using words I've only heard in rap songs and then telling Susan and I that we just wouldn't understand. There is one thing that impressed me about Jason though, in a bad way. I've had hugs from my guy friends where they avoid contact with my breasts, and hugs where I knew they wanted contact with my breasts. Jason had this nifty little back patting hug that put him in the perfect place to look down your shirt. Yes impressive in a bad way. I didn't want him hugging me but once again I had no choice without making a scene. He did smell good.
So after eating bloody steaks while Jerm made jokes about us getting worms or food poisoning I went home for awhile. I started getting all nervous and dreading going to the play, which is silly cause i'd hate myself if i missed it and I knew I'd enjoy it once I got there. We got there and met up with our friends, and then took our seats. I was in the middle of the row with a tall man with a big head in front of me and I had alittle anxiety attack sitting there. But once the play started it was really great. They did Noises Off. And they had the perfect cast for it, everyone was perfect. I mainly wanted to go see Will and Jeff, who were actors in the play. And they did awesome, especialy will. He started out playing the dentist in little shop of horrors, which he stole the show with. And now he was kicking ass with a complicated part.
I wanted to tell them all how great they did but as usual I chickened out and got out of there as fast as I could. i found it impossible not to congradulate the director on the way out, as he was standing right there, and he's the only one that didn't deserve appreciation, because he had people direct the play for him. Long story there. I have will and Jeff on My Space I think I'm just gonna send them a little note tomorrow.
So I end up at home, exhausted, and i can't shake this feeling like somethings wrong. And I guess now I'm going to look for someone to talk to while i try to chill out.
Wow a day I did stuff, outside the house, you know i had to blog about it. I did some more writing today too, which I'm really enjoying. I have all my friends helping me with it basically, asking them about stuff I don't know and advice and bouncing ideas off them. I'm gonna have a lot of people to thank.
Then Jerm's friend from work came over. This guy was wearing major blingage. And his pants were baggy to his knees, no kidding his ginormous belt buckle that would put rodeo cowboys to shame was at his knees. He came over talking about how Jerm was his best friend. And then I found out why, Jerm was loaning him 50 dollars. Apparently Jerm buys him food when they are at work too. I guess it's trickle down economics, Jerm leaches off of me and then this guy comes and leaches off of him. Which is ironic because he stands there with all this gold draped all over him. Jerm asked him where he got it and the guy said "I robbed somebody, I have to stop doing that" completely serious. And Jerm talks about him with that excitement in his voice like he does when he thinks he's in love, which is why he's giving away everything to this guy. This guy, Jason, was using words I've only heard in rap songs and then telling Susan and I that we just wouldn't understand. There is one thing that impressed me about Jason though, in a bad way. I've had hugs from my guy friends where they avoid contact with my breasts, and hugs where I knew they wanted contact with my breasts. Jason had this nifty little back patting hug that put him in the perfect place to look down your shirt. Yes impressive in a bad way. I didn't want him hugging me but once again I had no choice without making a scene. He did smell good.
So after eating bloody steaks while Jerm made jokes about us getting worms or food poisoning I went home for awhile. I started getting all nervous and dreading going to the play, which is silly cause i'd hate myself if i missed it and I knew I'd enjoy it once I got there. We got there and met up with our friends, and then took our seats. I was in the middle of the row with a tall man with a big head in front of me and I had alittle anxiety attack sitting there. But once the play started it was really great. They did Noises Off. And they had the perfect cast for it, everyone was perfect. I mainly wanted to go see Will and Jeff, who were actors in the play. And they did awesome, especialy will. He started out playing the dentist in little shop of horrors, which he stole the show with. And now he was kicking ass with a complicated part.
I wanted to tell them all how great they did but as usual I chickened out and got out of there as fast as I could. i found it impossible not to congradulate the director on the way out, as he was standing right there, and he's the only one that didn't deserve appreciation, because he had people direct the play for him. Long story there. I have will and Jeff on My Space I think I'm just gonna send them a little note tomorrow.
So I end up at home, exhausted, and i can't shake this feeling like somethings wrong. And I guess now I'm going to look for someone to talk to while i try to chill out.
Wow a day I did stuff, outside the house, you know i had to blog about it. I did some more writing today too, which I'm really enjoying. I have all my friends helping me with it basically, asking them about stuff I don't know and advice and bouncing ideas off them. I'm gonna have a lot of people to thank.
You know, when I hug my female friends, I just hug them. I am not overly concerned with their breasts. If I want to squeeze my friend tightly, I do. If it is just a simple quick hug, I just go with it. Does that make me weird?
Have a great day!