mavericka

They had the playhouse awards and I won for best lighting for the musical. Its black with gold writing on it. So no more plays till new years eve. Just movies. I think they should show this at the begining of the movies.

today went beyond my usual gone with the wind emoness.

major suckage, and all the chocolate in the world can't save me

Turn It On


sometime i forget who i am
playing in my own little selfish emo rock band
self promotion? hell if thats the way its got to be
do me a favor and turn the world on for me

how can i fight, for what is right
when you always leave the room and turn off the light

sometimes i swear, and wish i...
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The Ending Day


High in my tower I sit by the hour
From far away watching you day by day
giving the things you believed in away

Here in my tower at the top of this late hour
I fight off the dreams and the visions of you
The needy blow kisses, i capture their wishes
Throwing to them dried flowers
and elbowing the other...
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the cold i caught is almost gone, i think if i could just get the headaches under control i'd be in pretty good shape. I should be resting more but its just too boring lol. I know i seem the type to love to just lay around all day but i always want to be doing two or three things at a time. I've got...
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I just can't let that last post sit there its just too ugly. Very late last night i finally fell asleep with a wet towel on my forehead. I finally got the break i needed and I feel very greatful today. And my headache was gone when i woke up i was starting to think it would never go away. When i woke up i...
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started to get chest pains last night so i went to the hospital, they said i have heart damage from the bad habit i quit three years ago that shall not be named but that i wasn't in imediate danger. They wanted to keep me for more tests but i was just getting more upset the longer i stayed there finally decided i'd rather die...
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you know screw other people being mad at me i've worked myself up to the point that i broke out in fucking hives or something. it looks like i have chicken pox all over my chest and shoulders. why do i ever fucking give a shit about everybody liking me i'm the wierd antisocial goth chick that sits in the corner and flips people off...
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