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So Coheed and Cambria played a good show, however, I felt sick during most of it. Some guy 2 seats in front of us smoked a lot of pot which sucked for me because i've developed an allergy to the smoke. So my entire face itched, my throat hurt and I felt queasy. It really ruined most of the show for me. He finally quit smoking for awhile and I began to feel a little better so I actually stood up and no joke, 2 minutes later he was at it again. So I'm glad he had a good time and all but I still think smoking like that is selfish. But I'm also fairly anti smoking any thing (and no, it's not because I care that it's legal or illegal). I just wish smoking in public would be banned. Yes, I know this train of thought probably does not sit well with most of you.
My logic is that when someone else smokes it infringes on my desire to be in a smoke free environment and keep it out of my body. That and the current laws on how far people have to be away from buildings and windows to smoke is not far enough in my opinion. So yeah I do my best to just stay away/get away from people smoking but it sucks when it's at a concert where we have assigned seats. That and one of my number one pet peeves are people that smoke around children. It's so selfish and unthoughtful. So, we'll see if I get a shit storm of comments for my views on this but maybe no one even reads my blogs enough anyhow.

I am so excited for my tax return. Yes, i know, most of you all probably already did yours but I just did mine and i'm getting 2000 bucks back! sweet ass sweet. So I am going to put it towards my debt. I owe my uncle 1500 because he lent it to be back in 2007 to move to Illinois, so i'll pay it back plus some extra for interest. Then the rest will go towards my credit card which is nearly maxed out at 1000. I'm very excited to cut my debt back. I know it's not like I have a lot of debt, but I also do not make enough money to really pay it down on my day to day paycheck. I don't even have the money yet, but I know it's coming and i'm already feeling relieved. This is good for me.

I also sold some textbooks and will be getting a couple hundred from that soon and will finally be able to afford to apply to a new school. However, I have been enjoying my time off from school.

I've been doing some pleasure reading for the first time in a long time.

Tomorrow is mothers day! I throughly dislike my mother and haven't spoken to her in a few years but tomorrow Jay and I are going to go see his mom and I love her. Shes fantastic. This is one reason why Jay and I must get married.

The family I work for is going to Italy for nearly 2 weeks in July and I am hoping to get to see some family then. I haven't been to my home town in a really long time. I miss my nieces and nephew bunches. One of my brothers also has two kids but he lives in Montana. One is 3 and one is 1 and they don't even really know who I am. It sort of bums me out. Someday i'll be able to afford to go visit.

I've realized that ever since my dad died when I was 13, my whole family has sort of fallen out of touch. Well, it wasn't just because of my father dying but that was the beginning, and then my grandpa died, Nana died, great auntie died, our other grandma stopped talking to me and my siblings because we won't talk to our mother. The more I think about it the sadder I realize it all is. This is why I need to make things right between me uncle and I by keeping my word and paying him back so that I don't have to be afraid to talk to him. I also haven't seen my auntie Sharon and my cousins in awhile and they only live about 2 hours away. I need to get to know my family.

Anyhow, I have a lot of things to take to goodwill. I'm really trying to get rid of stuff and reduce what I have. Simple is so much better. I want a simple life. Calmer. Easier.

Well thats it for now, i need to shower and go to work.

Oh and less than 4 months until i'm finally 21. Yes, i've begun the countdown.